Let me start by saying I am blessed with two precious kids that I love so deeply. At school growing up I was the popular one I had many friends and enjoyed my life. After school I fell pregnant to a man I have known forever..we married although he had cheated on me 4 wks prior because I didnt want to be alone with a child at such a young age. He drank and abused me verbally threatened to kill himself on so many occasions and told me I had ruined his life. I forgave him for this and yes I had another child with him and he cheated again 2 years ago. When I forgave him yet again he promised he would change his ways and he did up until now. Because I dont trust him he tells me he can not do this anymore and needs to be able to live his life and find happiness. I gave up my life for him I gave up my dreams my career and my chance of a new life because of his empty promise's of a better life with my family. He is a great dad when he is around the kids adore him which is the reason I have been so very stupid for so long. My life sucks because I chose to take this path and I hate myself for wasting the last 10 years of my life- I can not bear to be alone instead I wanted to be unhappy in a marriage built on lies and verbal abuse. I just want scream I am that angry with myself and my pathetic excuses.. | |
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remember 1 thing:
it's never too late to do anything u want do
u own ur life... u can do pretty much whatever u wanna do
so... just try 2 be happy
u will find a decent guy 2 take care of ur children
but u need 2 get a divorce as soon as u can...
ur husband's a piece of shit
Good that he left you.
Here's to hoping you will eventually realize how much of a blessing this was.
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