LIFE SUCKS

running out of hope

I am 50. I have a bachelor's and a masters. I have been hired and laid-off three times since 2008. Before that I worked constantly and always paid my bills. I am now applying for jobs making less than half what I was making a few years ago. I was just told on Friday on a temp job I was working (only after I asked directly if my assignment was ending) will end on Tuesday. They were not even going to tell me that the assignment was over they were just asking me to train someone else as backup in the event that I get sick. Nice people. I am alone, I have no husband, or boyfriend and I am not only depressed but I am scared. I am getting to the point that I am so emotionally exhausted from trying to get work and doing anything when I get it that I barely have the energy to get out of bed in the morning and I do all of this and can barely pay my housing and medical coverage. I don't want to wake up anymore, I feel like a used up piece of garbage with no easing of the pressure in the near future. I think daily if I would just close my eyes and never wake up than I wouldn't have to endure the fear and stress any longer.