LIFE SUCKS

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I don't care anymore if I live or die. Everything I do to better myself just seems pointless. Nothing makes me feel good about myself. I eat too much. I smoke too much pot. I gave up drinking to feel better about myself but I feel like if I drank I would feel better. I would kill myself if my dad told me he would kill himself if I ever did. I would rather not have him do that. So I guess I am a coward if I do kill myself and a coward if I don't. I smoke cigarettes bec I know if I do it long enough it will do the job I am too much of a vagina to do