LIFE SUCKS

shit happend

So why does my life suck, im bout to be 22 pretty much had to raise my self growing up I was abused by my step father cause I wasnt his son.. I grew up in disfunctional family always had money problems my father was addicted to alcohol and cocaine always beat for no reason my would try and protect me but would never could... When I was 6 I had to watch my mother beat like a man cause she didn't have money for beer I remember sitting there crying as she mopped up her own puddle of blood.. Going to school never had money for clothes anythin tht but hey no one said life would be fair butt yet didn't think out was this hard, use to sit and wish someone would Judd take me away... Whn I in my teens I stated having panac attacks had so my stress and nerves didn't know wht to do, poetry much my life has sucked, butt for some reason I feel I have to bottle it all in and it hurts cause no one knows the pain behind the mask they just see me i'm always laughing trying put my front on I live a lonely life but try and never show out..i'm a real deterring person always hoeing for the best but expecting the worst...