LIFE SUCKS

Hearts are fickle

I was married 10 years and have been divorced 10 years. I've dated a lot of women never once saying "I love you" even after dating one for two years. Never found one that felt right. I finally met this girl I had a crush on back in high school. Haven't seen her for 23 years. It was instant sparks. I've never felt feelings like this not even for my wife.(Wife was pregnant so we married.) Everything went swell for a month. I could actually picture spending my life with this woman. I wrote her a poem:

When we were young, I wanted you
But I did not know what to do
I was headed for the Marines
And you were barely in your teens
You wrote to me most every day
I dreamed of you, in every way
The dream stayed strong, least for a while
But we were spread by many miles
It slowly faded, or at least grew more dim
I found a her, you found a him
Life started changing things we knew
We both struggled, we both grew
We had our ups, we had our downs
We had our smiles, we had our frowns
Back then we thought we knew it all
Though many times we've had to fall
We learned of friendship and deceit
We've both felt triumph and defeat
We've had our hearts just torn to shreds
With so much pain we wished we were dead
We've both had times of intense feeling
A child was born, WOW, that left us reeling
We're not old enough to have a child
We're still to young and dumb and wild
But as they grow we learn so much more
The ups and downs, you can't keep score
You learn that love means something bigger
Sometimes you cry and you can't figure
What these tears are even for
All your child did was score
The winning goal in some old game
You life will never be the same
But as we did, they must move on
Pretty soon they're grown and gone
We both arrived about the same time
You had your life I had mine
Then out of the blue we meet again
All those feelings came rushing in
We were scared on the first date
Would it be love, would it be hate
To me it felt you were never gone
You sat on back just holding on
That something missing I'd been feeling
You filled that void from floor to ceiling
Upon the stairs I took a chance
A playful kiss suggestive glance
Does she even feel the same
Maybe to her it's just a game
Now weeks have passed and we're still here
It's not a game, you've made that clear
You've expressed the way you feel baby
But now we're left to wonder, just maybe
Would it have worked if we'd stayed together
Would we have made it forever and ever
We'll never know cause we're not the same
We've both played a different game
If we could go back and start again
I would not change a single thing
Because you'd have to give up what you've learned
All your memories they'd be returned
They weren't all bad, some are out of sight
To give them all up, well that's just not right
But from here on out I'd love to try
To be the certain kind of guy
That makes you laugh and smile and giggle
That makes you moan and groan and wiggle
To show you things you've never seen
To treat you like you are a queen
To help you up when you are down
To make a smile out of that frown
To pleasure you from dusk till dawn
Into your arms I feel so drawn
I don't want to waste another minute
Of my life without you in it
It truly pains me when you're not here
That's how I know my love's sincere
I think about you night and day
When you're here or far away
So here I stand with heart in hand
Hoping you will understand
It's all yours I can't give more
I hope it doesn't end up sore
But if it does I know I'll live
Because I gave you all I could give

This was three days ago. She loved it. She cried. She has not come over since. She keeps giving lame excuses. Says she is visiting her mother. Am I a dope? Should I just try and move on? I mean EVERYTHING I put in the poem!