I feel so alone that I don't know how to go on any longer. Unlike some of the people on this site, I had a normal childhood and went to university, got an education and have worked my way to a good job. But life has become extremely challenging since graduation. It is not what I expected in my wildest dreams. I come from an extremely conservative Sikh family and I am in love with a Muslim, which is worse than anything else in the world for a Sikh girl to be with a Muslim man. I have gone through years of heartbreak, not finding the right person, no matter if they were Sikh or not. Now I am with someone I think I have a real chance and my once tight-knit family has been torn apart at the seams. I am no longer close to my family, a family that means more to me than anything else in the world. I am being told that they will not be at my wedding and they will not be a part of my future if "he" is in it.
When things couldn't get any worse, my father lost job two years ago and my parents have been struggles at such an age when they should be retiring. Oh an it turns out that my brother is a pathological liar and faked all the "facts" of his life for the past 5 years. He is also a drug addict. And he spent 5 years in university without getting a degree, wasting 100,000's of dollars of my parents' hard earned living. Now they are trying to bring him back to normal, while dealing with financial stress and dealing with my relationship.
My relationship has been full of trials and tribulations as well and plagued with doubt. The expectations are sky high when you are giving up your family for a man. I am not sure I can do this. I am not sure if I will say yes when he asks me to marry him. But I am not sure if I will ever meet someone as good as he is for me. I am paralyzed as I face the biggest decision of my life. Do I chose the person I believe is the one? Is he the one when we have so many problems or are the problems being caused by the pressure and stress from my family. They are constantly telling me that this is going to be the biggest mistake of my life. That this marriage will end in divorce. Or do I pick my family and hope that I will meet someone else who will make me feel this way? Someone else who will stick by me like he has? Someone else who will love and cherish me?