I never had friends had a dad that really wanted a boy drank away my adult life. My husband shot himself infront of me while I was pregnat with my baby. I have no skills no money am old and worn out and can't get hired if my life depended on it. About ready to be homeless in a very cold climate. My dad just died and now I found out my daughter has depression and health problems and no health insurance.
Please don't worry about the gf bf or if you are popular. You have time to change it if you don't waste your time like I did. Now I can't find a way to move on no matter what I try. I went back to school and still can't get hired.
There is no where to turn but the only thing I know for sure is Im not taking the cowards way out. It won't do me any good and really really screws up other people like I wouldn't want my worst enemy hurt.
You have time mine pretty much ran out and I have to live with the mistakes I made. No way to make up for them now. Im just kinda waiting for it to be over and hope I don't end up in a cardboard box or in a welfare nursing home where you don't even get to eat when or what you want. And get bathed by someone I don't know when I don't feel like it.
Pills didn't help prayers didn't help talking didn't help. Im just waiting. DON'T waste your time make your life better in anyway while you Find a way NOW while you can. Even if you try to make a difference to someone else and help them. Best way to help yourself is too help someone else. I don't even have resourse to do that. | |
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i know this might sound stupid but have you tried to get a job as a housekeeper in a hotel or something? i know they always need people for that, and age doesn't matter...please don't give up on yourself, for your daughter's sake, she needs you...and if you survived all the bad things that happened to you, you can get through this..good luck...
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