I grew up Poor, My parents divorced when i was 6 when i was 19 my dad had a massive heartattack inside 7 Eleven and died. A few months later my favorite Granny was diagnosed with cancer and died a couple months later. 9 months later my step dad found out he had Brain cancer and died 4 months later about a year and a half later my mom found out she had cancer i took care of her for 8 months until she passed away. My twin sister couldnt handle the pain and got into drugs and disappeared i heard she was living in a car..I got married to a very abusive man who beat the crap out of me all the time and cheated on me from day 1! I had a son when i was 17 and pretty much missed out on my entire childhood prom, school dating...etc..
My husband was from a small Island and we ended up moving there after i had another baby once there i discovered my husband was living a double life and was engaged to a flight attendant who lived on the island, needless to say i left him and suffered greatly no family or friends on a very expensive island i started dating a gangster for the excitment and he used me. My aunt who was like a mother to me and raised me got really sick i had no money for a ticket to go home and see her or help in anyway...she ended up dying in the middle of the night all alone....I have felt guilty ever since...I divorced my husband still stuck on this island i again was living very poor lost tons of weight. I met a man who i started dating, soon after he lost his job i stuck by him and he still is not working or cant help me in anyway. Now i am living poor again on a boring expensive Island with no family or friends and no money struggling in an unfufilling relationship that i dont have the heart to get out of....I've never done anything my kids always come first i am 33 and bought my first laptop and i have never even been in a Limo or had any kind of exciting life whatsoever....Now tell me does my life suck??? | |
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Your life sucks. It sucks ass. Sure you have kids, and love them very much even if for those 5 brief minutes a day they are calm and complacent enough to ignore what's going on in your and their lives, but you have more right than anyone to feel ATLEAST a little bit selfish enough to care about your own life.
Fuck that shitty situation.
Thank you.
Work your ass off, get any job, more than one, and do your best, because even if everyone else is gone and you're on your own, you need to show your kids that you work hard for them, that you don't quit and be a strong role model, because your kids are the ones who count, and you've doen so well to stick at it and try your best for them.
When you've done your job and you're all happy in in a good place, there will be plenty of time for a limo ride and some dating, but you need to get your life stabilised, ditch the boyfriend who is draining your cash even more, start a local college course, get your life sorted, hopefully when your 43, you'll be riding round in a limo smiling at the experiences that made you the strong successful woman you are.
Then those you have lost can smile down at you and know you've done it right, you might have a missed a few things from youth, but most people at 33 are only just having kids then spend into their 50's raising them before they're free, you're already nearly done, and you'll have your whole life to get everything done.
My Mum is 39, I am 22, she had me at 17 then my brother at 22, she was a homeless anorexic who was on drugs, her partner beat her and as a result my sister was born stillborn at 8months into the pregnancy, she changed her life around, fought to get me back through court, got herself a home, worked day and night for me and my brother, moved us to a good area, we went to good schools, she now has a lovely apartment, me and my brother are relatively well educated and she has built her career up from nothing, she went back to college whilst working 3 jobs, got her GCSE's and A Levels, started out as a cleaner, now she is a Senior Housing Officer studying a degree in her spare time, she is living proof you can do anything and your children will notice and admire you, she's 39 and me and my brother are pretty much grown up, she now has her whole life for her career and sociliasing and a boyfriend. You can too.
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