Thinking of suicide gives me a bit of peace. | Posted by anonymous at July 9, 2012 | Tags: July 2012 |
My girlfriend who is the sweetest most honest person I think I've ever met just moved in with a male roommate. I don't think she would cheat on me. But the situation has been giving me a lot of anxiety. I hate my job. And I don't feel like I really have much of a future. I live with my Father and take care of him. He has a grade 4 brain tumor. For several years now I've thought about killing myself. About 10 months ago I decided that I am going to do it once my Father passes. A few weeks back I went out and bought a Glock 27 to help me complete my task. No one knows how much of a piece of shit I am. I hate myself.Many nights I cry myself to sleep. I try and act like a pretty chill guy when I'm around people. But the truth is I just want to die. Pretty soon I will be able to end my life. I'm writing a will. And the few assets that I have will be left to my GF. I guess I should buy a coffin. Or prepay at the crematory. I don't want to leave any bullshit for someone else to do. I have never mentioned any of this to anyone before. And this is the closest I've come to talking about it. I guess there's really not much to talk about. Just stuff to do. Affairs to get in order and such. Best of luck to you all. | |
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