Well, I'm 30 years old and all my life I've been taken advantage of.... I was born with ADD(attention deficit disorder ) so I lose concentration very easy...whether I'm deep into a conversation or fringe a car, I'm always distracted.. I have always been overweight. .. growing up I wasn't rich by any means, but through what I've seen I know I wasn't poor either. All my life I've tried to help everyone I could whether it was a family member or a complete stranger in a broken down car...I was a mechanic raght out of high school and was shit on every day I worked...I was promised eases never got them always picked on and made fun of... until I finally lost my cool, I blew up on my boss and was fired... cars were always my hobby, but that job was the start of the downfall for that... I have only been in 4relationships my whole life, and have been cheated on in everyone of them... after that job I went to work for my father who never took taxes out on me which hurt me in the long run... in 2004 I was involved in an auto accident which nearly killed me, but did take the life of a woman who left behind 2 young kids.. I broke my back in five places along with almost every bone on my left side and Mr right wrist.. through the years I have gained a lot of friends... most of which are not true friends, but more just people who know someone popular... I call my self popular because I attract people everywhere I go... I've never met anyone who has told me I'm a bad person... I've done things for people who don't know me.. every Tuesday for seven and a half years I volunteered at a homeless shelter to help feed them.. I've saved 15 peoples lives... anyway while I was in the ho
spital for my wreck I was married to my wife Amy(we are now separated and she wants a divorce)... after I was released from the hospital I went to jail for my accident. My injuries which deemed me permanently totally disabled are a constant reminder of my accident and the fact that I took someones life... I have been with my wife for 5 years (and even though I've been injured it was the best 5 years of my life) and now she is leaving me because I have not been able to give her the attntion she wanted or forgive her for her faults.. we have a beautiful daughter together who is the best thing I've ever given this world...but I can't even be the father she deserves due to my injuries.. I go through severe physical pain every day and have a death on my concience.. I now believe I am holding them back from enjoying their lives. As for my parents and siblings, they may love and care for me, but use and take advantage of me every day... I've spent so much time helping others even after my wreck, that I have not left enough time to help myself...I've. Neglected and lied to friends, family, and myself in the past five years... and I personally don't like who I have become.. with every day i spend alone I grow colder and more bitter... I'm not that person and for those reasons my life sucks...it doesn't matter how much you do for other,as long as you take care of yourself first...focus on who you really want to be, and be that person... honestly I believe this world needs more of who I used to be and less of what I'm turning into... you must like youself before you will ever be happy... now I'm just a angry depressed asshole... and that s why life
sucks.. | |
sucks.."
Well it looks like you finally know what you did wrong, so you really don't need any help from us. All your life you have put others before you which shows you have a big heart but you neglected yourself. STOP doing that! People can take care of themselves and don't have to call on you for every single situation. Start living life for yourself. find some activities that will take up your time and keep you occupied instead of sitting there bitter and depressed. What good is that going to do for you? Be a part of your child's life. She doesnt need an absent father. Youre still alive, you can talk, laugh, speak and show affection and most importantly teaching your child and being the best role-model that you can be. there are already enough fatherless children in this world, so stay near your daughter.
New Comment