Seems like boredoom has found my way here. My story may not sounds like it sucks or pathetic like the rest of them here, but i feel that my life sucks. Although i have all the basic things in life ( food,housing,allowances), i still feel sad. Everyday, i would wake up so late in the afternoon and straight away i would play computer games. Its like i got no life. People tell me how smart i am but i see little hope in my future. Its like so dim and i cant probably be rich in the future. I don't even have an idea as to how i am able to earn so much. I do average in my exams, passing most of it. I self-assured myself by telling me that i only studied the night before and its alright to score that low. I have friends in school but they don't contact mi often especially during holidays, i feel like i broke off from the real world... into the virtual world i am in now. I play computer games from the time i woke up and until past midnight maybe 3am or 4am. I feel that i got no life and no aim. There's a blackhole in me and i cant stop it sucking everything into it, dissapearing forever. Everytime i think about school, i felt so depressed. Homework is piling up like a mountain and there is no end to it. I don't even feel like starting on it. I consider to start a blog to rant about my boring life but motivation just stops there. I think about my future, what would i become and what childhood memories will i remember? Computer games? Those rounds i played with random people? Could i even remember happy times at all? I doubt so. Maybe there isn't any happy moments in my life. Maybe there is but i don't feel happy. I can only remember myself being avoided and emo'ing at one corner. Most of my classmates don't talk to me. I am known as the cyber-warrior in cyberworld, wasting all my life there and achieving nothing in reality. This routine cant stop and the holiday is coming to an end. Then the boring routine starts again. School and such. I am just such a failure.
Currently i type all this just to waste my time instead of wasting it playing computer games. Even i felt boring and pointless to play any games now. I seems to lose all motivation in life and feel like just dying. But my brain tells me to live on and carry on this sad life where there is no point in everything i do. Ok bye. Helps me to reflect all i have done. | |
ENJOY THE NOW.
Live this life as a dream.. like all the trivial things like school marks education are just trivial bullshit like things you experience in a dream..
Why do we study? To earn money. Thats it. There is no other reason. Why make a big deal out of it. If you enjoy video games play them if you get bored watch TV if you are bored of them both do something else drink coffee wine try drugs whatever..
if you are bored of all that go outside in a park or go on a hike alone..or just go out few blows for a walk..you don't need friends for that shit...
Enjoy life.. small things like good food.. drink... like make a routine of the exact time in a winter morning/night when you gonna drink coffee or wine or tea and savour that moment.. thats what i do to enjoy life..
i dont care about the future.. what if there is no future and i may die soon? Why worry about something that hasnt even happened...
Video games to me are a lifesaver becuase it takes me away from the problems of this pathetic world. games make me laugh, make me daydream, they occupy me. How can you not have a life? you should get up and fill up that day with things you love to do.
Doing drugs, selling drugs, pointing guns to people's heads and being invovled and influenced with the wrong crowd, that sounds like someone who doesnt have a life. instead they are on the streets spreading terror doing NOTHING valuable with their life, wasting their freedom that this country has given them since birth. They are what i call Local Terrorist and fist-class idiots.
But YOU, you do have a life, you're in college and youre trying to make something of yourself. youre working hard to try to make your life in the future better than what it is now. but i know exactly how you feel. Sometimes going to college just seems like forever. its REALLY hard to keep pushing yourself foward, completing ALL those 60+ classes with thousands of dollars to pay back.
If homework is piling up, maybe you should consider dropping some classes. spread them out in the semester. like for example, In the spring, only take three, then in the summer, maybe take one or two, then during the fall, take three more.
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