i'm a pretty good looking 20 year old girl, and i can't remember the last time i smiled, and it truely felt genuine. getting out of bed is the hardest thing in the morning. my boyfriend of 3 years dumped me today too, which just makes me feel more suicidal than i feel every single minute i breath. i gave hime everything, paid for evyerhthing, i was the best girlfriend...ok, sometimes i was crazy, but come on, i'm a girl, we are nuts. i can't find job, NOT EVEN WENDYS WOULD HIRE ME. i don't have a crimal record and i graduated high school, i went to college for a few semeters, AMD I STILL CANT FIND A FUCKING FULL TIME JOB. i'm considering stripping. i hate living at home with my parents. i have no car. all my friends hate me now for who i became when i was with my ex. i have no one. my exs cock was so big that it fucked my pu$$y up FOREVER, i was hoping to marry him so i wouldn't ever have to feel uncomfortable around someone else naked. i will NEVER have sex again. i sit home all day, 24/7 getting high, and when i can't afford a bag of maryjane, i'll huff paint just to ease my anixety and depression. sometimes i wish i had to courage to just jump in front of a train, or cut my wrists 'long ways' instead of 'side to side.' i'm to pu$$y to kill myself, so i'm just going to be this miserable person the rest of my life. thanks d.j.a, you FUCKED UP MY LIFE. he would make me beg for money outside of stores or threaten to leave me. he made me do it so much and in the town i live in, that i;m now known as the town crackhead, and i've never even smoked it before. he would force me to make so much money that it came down to me prostituting myself. i hate myself for that more than anything else. I'M AT THE LOWEST POINT OF MY LIFE, AND I CAN'T GET THE FUCK OUT OUT OF THIS FUNK! i just want to die. | |
So you see...not all is lost.
You are actually LUCKY!! You won the "GET THE LOSER BOYFRIEND OUTTA MY LIFE LOTTERY!!!
GOOD RIDDANCE! God, honey, you've got your whole life ahead of you! And you're so fortunate, you have your looks. Pull on those black patent leather boots, and go out there and knock em dead! DO NOT BE A STRIPPER. You will not find happiness in that line of work and it's way overrated. Trust me. Get off the damn computer, and go out there and find yourself a job. Get your own apartment. Stake out your OWN life. You don't need a man to tell you how much money you can have- or not have. Geeezzzz, I get so friggen pissed when I hear stuff like that- You're not living in the dark ages. You will find work if you put enough effort and creativity into your search. Work= stability and self-confidence. Both of which it sounds like you are lacking... So change it! You have to power! You're beautiful! SPUNKY! and young. The world awaits. Make it happen!!!!
We're all here rooting for you!
Cursed
YOU need to quit being so shallow on looks, am just assuming; making an ass outta myself, and you will find many more good DICKS out there AND if you need that BIG of one then LOOK AT THEIR HANDS!!
Get off your pity pot cuz if you are that pretty, the world is at your hands, but NOT with that attitude, GROW UP!
YOU are responsible for YOUR actions...YOU ALLOWED him to treat YOU that way so you must somewhat like it or you would have moved on a long time ago!!
To the OP, if that story is true then I am sorry to hear that. If you do decide to go the stripper route, then only do it till you have enough money to get your own place.
Then find a real job.
The Psalmist cried out, "No man cares for my soul." [Psalm 142:4]. He was experiencing the loneliness of isolation from other people, and the feeling that those around him were pursuing their own interests rather than showing genuine concern for his soul.
People are often pursuing their own interests and desires, but the lesson we must learn is that people are not our source. In the midst of your isolation, you can turn to Christ and discover that His love truly does satisfy. Jesus understands loneliness and rejection. He experienced isolation from people. Because he understands, he is able to bring acceptance and love.
Christ brings you love, acceptance, and intimate communion with the God of love. With Christ, you are not alone. He conquers your loneliness by coming to dwell within you. Loneliness is removed by the presence of the indwelling Christ.
There is precious communion with Christ, when a lonely person discovers that the love of Christ is real and satisfying. There is an old saying, "Blessed are the homesick, for they shall come home." Loneliness and isolation are signs of homesickness, which can only be healed by coming home to Christ.
Christ makes us whole. His love makes us whole, and out of the overflow of Christ's love within us we can then show love and compassion for those around us. Out of the overflow of His love and acceptance for you, which heals your loneliness, you can show love and caring towards those around you.
He knocks at the door of your heart; the presence of Christ is real. But He must be invited into your heart, into the center of your being.
Receive Him; receive His cleansing and forgiveness and love. Allow Him to have the control of your life in a genuine surrender, and His loving presence will fill you, removing loneliness and unrest. May the peace of Christ fill you now!
A Prayer of Surrender:
Dear Lord Jesus, please fill me with your love, and wash away all my sins. I surrender my heart and life to you. I ask you to receive me and make me whole.
Thank you for dying on the cross for my sins, to cleanse me and forgive me. Thank you for dying on the cross for me, to make me a child of God. I turn away from all my sins, with all my heart.
I receive you, Lord Jesus, as the Lord and Savior of my life. I ask you to rule in my heart and life from now on. I ask you to fill me with your loving presence, and guard me with your divine protection.
I ask you to strengthen me and help me, to live for you from now on. I ask you to fill me with love so that I can love other people with a pure love. Fill me with love so that I can love you with all of my heart. Amen.
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