Hey, so i am an almost 25 year old woman and at the moment i am having a very hard time holding myself together. I live in a part of the world where the society is composed of people from all over the world. i always felt like an outcast, never connected with my own culture anymore as i have been living in another country more than half my life. I was always an over achiever, by 20 i finished my undergrad, by 22 my post grad with distinction. At 22 i became a manager for one of the biggest healthcare companies in the country and now i was head hunted by o government organization in another city, giving me an offer i could not imagine in my wildest dreams. I didn't have a father growing up. he passed away at a very young age. My mother has been my angel and pillar of support. I come from a mixed culture mixed religion family. No matter how much i have done with my professional life my personal life was always a disaster. Last year i started something with a guy from my own culture. Although was sworn against such men, everyone seemed to be telling me it's time to settle. So i started seing him. although at the beginning i said no, he begged and pleaded until i thought he did truly love me and i should give him a shot. Little did i know that he would be abusive and he would suck out every once of energy i had in me. i fell in love of course. Taking the emotional and verbal abuse, while he criticized every single aspect of me. i am not a bad looking person but i never saw myself beautiful. he would always say i was and he wanted to marry me and so on so fourth, but he never told me i was smart or that he appreciated my drive in life. He had no education not even a high school degree. He had a good job because of his father however, zero knowledge and super stubborn. It was not his fault that while i spent my years studying he spent them drinking and womanizing, it was my fault for achieving what i did in life. He destroyed me my sense of self, the little love i had for myself. we broke up not so long ago in a very bad way (2 weeks) he is now with another woman. She is beautiful, just his style, i saw they together holding hands. She is vulgar but gorgeous, something i cannot match to. I feel i cant go on. I never thought he would cheat or lie he always made me believe i was the liar and i did everything wrong and now reality punched me in the face. The job i have been offered and just accepted yesterday after 7 months of interviewing is in the same city he works, we were supposed to move there together. He thinks the offer got cancelled and i will no longer go. I know very well it would sting him if he knew and he might be coming back but i cannot take him back. I hate myself, i am depressed, i feel i cannot go on, i am so afraid of moving alone to that city where i have so many bad memories in. I just want to hide. I cry all the time. Can barely function at work (thank god i am about to resign), i have self harmed to numb my pain. And all i think about is that he is 5 buildings away from my house in the apartment we chose for him together because he wanted to be close to me but i could not move in with him as he was abusive and i said he needed to change. He is there on the bed we chose together with this other woman. and i feel i am going crazy! i feel i am worthless. I have a shrink appointment today and i am already on anti anxiety pills. My birthday is in three days, 5 days ago was our anniversary for which he never showed up. and here i am....shattered! | |
why are you crying over this loser? you can do better. don't waste a second more of your time wondering what he thinks of you or if he thinks of you going to that job or being near him cuz truth is honey, he is over it and NOT thinking about you. YOU SHOULD DO THE SAME. GOOD LUCK.
I had it all but things now suck
My ex has a hottie he loves to fuck
I am gross compared to her
You could say I'm dogshit, as it were
So now I sit and cry all day
Kill myself, I just may!
But until then I'll post some more
because I am a fucking whore
My name is Mrs Rhonda, and i live in South Africa.I have been through hell and pain,When my husband turned against our marriage,and sent me away,and said that he never wanted to see me again,because he was having an affair outside with another woman.I was finally confused,and so many thoughts came to my mind,when a friend finnally advice me to go and visit a spell caster,which i never believed.And as i was searching for a spell caster to help,I was scammed four{4} times,by some who claimed to be real spell casters.until i found the real and great spell caster "mindcastsolutiontemple@live.com" who helped me,and solved all my problems concerning my husband who left me since six months.and after that a friend of mine also complained of her husband too,who left her for over eight{8} months,So i linked her up with the same spell caster who helped me too,and the problem was also solved by the same spell caster "mindcastsolutiontemple@live.com" and the relationship was now stronger than how it were before. Whao!! the real and great spell caster is here,all you need to do now is to contact this same address whenever you are in any problem related to spell casting,or any thing that has to do with spell,or help.It took me a very long period of time,before i could get this real and great spell caster.So right now "mindcastsolutiontemple@live.com" is here,and the best for you to solve your problems that are bothering your mind..
Finally,thanks to "mindcastsolutiontemple@live.com" for bringing joy to my family...
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Thanks.....
My names are Williams Smith, am from New York.why i am writing this testimony is because
i made a promised that who so ever help me out of my shit and predicament deserves to be known
by the world. Am 26 years of age my girlfriend left me some months ago that am a piece of old
cargo that there is nothing on earth that can bring our paths together as long as he breaths. I
felt really bad because i loved him so dearly' one day i came ac crossed some testimonies of
this priest called ebukashrinetemple, So i decided to give him a chance but immediately he told
me he was from Nigeria, i lost hope because i heard there are lots of scammers down there. but
when he told me things so personal which i knew was so secret that was only known to me then i
gave him a chance out of my doubting spirit but to my greatest surprise my girlfriend called me
three days latter that she is so sorry for all the pains she has made me pass through. presently
our love is more than that of romeo and Juliet lol. he takes good care of me now 100% than
before.And he's also specialized in solving all kinds of problems.So just give him a trial,and
you will understand what i am talking about.
Thank you so much priest ebukashrinetemple, here is the email address that turn my
pains, sadness and sorrow into joy: "ebukashrinetemple@gmail.com"
from Williams smith, New york..
I had to write back and say what an amazing experience I had with dodogodssolution@yahoo.com. l am tina. I was desperate for a kind and gentle man to enter my life when I ran into your email doing some surfing. I had a phone consultation with Dr dodogods and I found him to be so helpful, gentle and reassuring. Within a couple of weeks, I met a guy in a dance club who really swept me off my feet. I’ve been with him for several months now and we seem to be the perfect couple. All it took was one visit to Dr dodogods and my life is as good as it has ever been. I need to thank Dr.dodogods for caring about me enough to send me such a wonderful and powerful spell.thanks post by David
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