I don't know why i"m unhappy. I'm engaged, live in a comfortable place have food on the table as struggling business. But really I'm okay. I read the stories on here and realize I have it better than most. But really I'm still unhappy. I got engaged to a guy I've been with for several years and moved my life to be closer to him.
The transition has been hard on me financially. I actually started a savings account before left and now every month I go to 0. My good friend has moved in with us who has a baby. The baby is just adorable.
So I should be happy. My legs work I'm not in a war torn country. But I can't seem to get myself off internet shows. I have no passion for what I do anymore. I don't want to work.
A few months after I moved my fiancé and I got into a disagreement. He was drinking all night and almost hung himself on Christmas lights outside. I'm supposed to forget this. He drinks much less but I still hate how it takes so few drinks to get him to a slurry voice. His jaw shifts and he acts like I can't tell. He then wants sex and I want nothing to do with him.
We're supposed to get married soon and all my friends and family are going to make their way over here and I just want it all to stop.
We've talked about breaking up and he says he'll be fine without me. He can keep going and working. I think why do I put up with this? But my heart aches more than it ever has at the thought of this.
But again he brings me dinner most nights and tells me I'm a beauty. He lets my friend stay here and is very clean. So I guess I should just stop complaining. | |
The more he puts you down, the better he feels and down goes another beer...
Trust me, he likes the fact that he has you under his thumb. It gives him a sense of false "power" over you-
But what the fuck do I know-
I'm Cursed.
Wish you the best of luck.
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