I am an RN at a psych facility. The people are crazy. My boss is the definition of the word b*tch. Nothing is ever right in her eyes. She screams all the time and never listens. That is the good part of my life. The bad part you say, my 18 year old daughter.... She has given me pure hell for the last 7 years. When she was 11, I was called the local skating rink because she was found outside with TWO boys! Things have gotten progressively worse since then. By the time she was 13 she had essentially quit school. She would leave the house for days on end. She has been brought home by the police. I've had to pick her up from the police. I've been called in the middle of the night to meet the ambulance at the ER because she had been in a car accident. I've also been to the ER with her numerous times after failed suicide attempts. She has lied more than I care to know about, smoked cigarettes since she was 12, weed since she was 13. Stolen my car in the middle of the night numerous times. Heard a rumor she was selling herself for money. So, cut to 3 years ago. She drug home this scrawny little piece of a man (using that term loosely) who was much older than her. He was a wanna be thug. He had no education, no job, no car, no home, no nothing! All that excited him was gang movies and videos games and apparently sex, because 1 month in my daughter gave me the news she was pregnant. I accepted that. Hey, what could I do? My grandchild was born 13 weeks early. (She is perfect now, thanks for asking.) She had to spend 2 months in the hospital after being born. During this time my daughter went back to her old ways. She would go days without visiting her child. Found out shortly after birth that this "man" was abusing my daughter. Had to go thru courts and get a restraining order. So now she has a new boyfriend. Same story, different person. She has taken it upon her self to move him in as well as her best friend. I tell them everyday that this has got to end. I have started not buying groceries except for the baby. Basically, I am taking care of three extra people because of my daughter and she wonders why I'm angry. She yells, curses, and threatens me. Oh, and her latest, she went to her gyno doc without my knowledge and had her birth control device removed. During all of this, I have lost my existence. I went from having many friends to practically none. A loving boyfriend to none. A beautiful home to living in (and with) trash. A beautiful body to 80 extra pounds. I would love to just disappear but I am the only safe person in my grandbaby's world. I feel myself losing a grip on reality a little more everyday. That's my world in a nutshell. How's yours?!? | |
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