I'm a 15 year old guy. I live(d) in Australia. I'm in boarding school in New Zealand now.
I was sent home last term for self harm (which I did for various reasons) but I was forced to come back this turn by my mum. If I didn't come back, I'd have had to go to my dad's place in a different state (and I really don't want to go there). If I get myself expelled from here, I have to go to a foster home, according to my mother.
Why do I hate it here?
I feel that I don't connect with anyone here - my one good friend is a day student, and we have ONE class together, which I don't have every day.
I can't go on towntrips every Thursday afternoon/Sunday afternoon because of last term's incident. The town trip was the only thing I liked about it here.
I HAVE to have a roommate because the deans don't want me to be on my own.
I connected greatly with these 4 girls last term, and even got really close to one of them and... Well... To be blunt, I fingered her (asking her 5 times if she was sure it was alright) - I come back this term and she doesn't talk to me at all, and all her friends are acting strange/ignoring me too. I sent her an email asking her if I did something wrong, and if she was alright and she sent me an email back saying "I don't think we should have any more contact". Funny thing is, I wrote a letter before I left last term and asked my friend to give it to her... He never did. Not only that, but I took full responsibility for what I did and that, even though it's her fault I was sent home (I won't go into that, but when we were "interrogated" by one of the deans, she told him it was her responsibility and didn't let me say anything, and then walked off seemingly pissed off to the extreme. When I was asked as to why I self-harmed and everything, I made the girls dean swear on her heart that she wouldn't punish the girl (let's call her Ashlee) and she agreed not to. I've heard from my mum that apparently she DID get punished.
There's no way out of this place. | |
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