The world is cheering and partying for another year to start and to stay alive another year, they’re happy to enjoy another year of they’re life’s… while I’m crying and wondering why I have to live…
In the bathroom under the hot water running… the tears following after the drops of water…
Laying apart in thousand peaces on the cold ground without feeling anything…
I’m breathing but I feel more dead than dead…
Tears stream down my face like a waterfall…
Everything‘s black… my eyes are wide open but the world is so dark…
On floor…the water running…
The heavy drops of water falling on my skin… its like water’s trying to hurt me too…
I can’t think of anything… I can’t feel anything…
It hurts like it never did before… I’m screaming… but it’s so quiet…
My heart’s bleeding but I don’t see the blood…
Loneliness…
There’s no one that could hold my cold hand or bring me a cloth to put on my heart so it stops bleeding…
There’s nothing good now…
I look up… I see the square small white roof…
I hardly move my arms up…slowly open my fist’s…whispering:” dear god… what did I do? … Please dear god tell me what did I do that I deserve this? … Whatever it was, was it so bad that I deserved this? …”
I cry…I cry…
The tears don’t stop…
They come and come… its like my hearts uncolored blood is bleeding out from my eye’s…
It couldn’t hurt any worse…
I can’t feel any worse…
When is this going to end?
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What did u do?
i know i didnt write my story, is weird... and what ur reaally suposed 2 do on this wbsite is to write why ur life sucks , i did write my story once , but i just wanted other people to read this thing too , idk why. u can read my story in the december entries its called "my hopeless life..." december 25/2009 , but trust me my life is worse now
Dude u need to trust and love first your self and then the others... I hope the best for u ...
please try to see something good in your life...something that deserves to stay alive... there is something... u just need see clearly... Dont give up...
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