I am a very lucky young guy to have such a great loving wife. She works very hard and we have a nice comfortable life. I have given up my closeness with my family and everything plus moved twice to be with the woman I love. I have also left many great friends behind and the older I am getting, the harder it is to make a friend. My wife works alot and we moved to a new town so she could work less hours. Unfortunately, her hours have only gotten worse and we hardly see eachother anymore. So now its the same story of our last location except I dont have any friends here like I did there. When I do see her she is on her way to bed or just worked 4 day 14 hours shifts and does not want to talk. They have also been giving her night shifts and this month is like 30 days of night. I even try getting nocturnal so we can at least sleep in bed together. Needless to say, that our time together is like hanging out with an over worked stressed out zombie on crack. Or we fight about how much she is working and she keeps telling me it will get better for a year now. I told her that telling me that is not going to work anymore. She has a day off but she does not get off till 7am and then sleeps from noon to 9pm and then I am the zombie. She reminded me about the money today and I said what is it all for if we never see eachother and we are both so unhappy? I am very thankful to have a roof over my head and food to eat and so many blessings. You dont have to be broke to be alone and unhappy. I just dont want to be alone. I was not ment to be alone or I would not have gotten married. This house is not a home. I could pay another lonely person to hang out with me and that would be helping them and me? But the thougt of that just makes me feel more SAD and ALONE. I pray for a friend.... | |
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