I don't know if it is a chemical imbalance, or how I was raised, or if it is just who I am, but I have always been filled with rage. I live in a constant state of anger that has never gone away. Every day I wake up and eat that sugar-filled, over-processed junk that passes for cereal while I watch TV. And TV just pisses me off. I am exposed to the raw stupidity of man before I have time to even get dressed for the day. I am bombarded with images of anorexic air-brushed models and told I have to look like one of them. When I finally go to school I am so angry I am seeing red and ranting during the walk there. During school I try to be the comedian. I am always cracking school-appropriate and funny jokes. I don't make fun of people because I have been made fun of enough to know it really does hurt. I just tell people about my weird dreams or what I would do if I dictated this world and for some reason people find all of this funny. When I go home I sit down and eat what little food is in the house. It could be soy burgers one day and popcorn the next. My parents are never home and when they come home all they do is nag at me for being too negative. And so the cycle of never ending worthlessness, anger, and stupidity begins again. The worst part is that I never wanted to live. If there is a "god", which I do not believe in, then he is one cruel bastard. He forces me to live when in reality I would prefer it all go away. He put me on this planet, with its stupid people and its technology. Which brings me to the fact that with out technology the world would be ten times better. We would not have cell phones, and computers, and ipods which destroy all communication between individuals. We would not have cars to transport all our food so we could go back to hunting and gathering. We would not have government because long distance communication would not be possible. We could all go back to clubbing stupid people over the head and doing survival of the smartest. And I am not talking book smarts even though those are nice. I am talking common sense. Sorry I am ranting but my long, angry, pathetic, worthless existence is a great inconvinence for everyone.