Anxiety is ruining my life | Posted by anonymous at June 6, 2012 | Tags: Anxiety 2012 June |
My name is Jacinta and I am 18.
Early this year I had a very nasty cancer scare. The doctor noticed that my thyroid was swollen and everyone thought it was normal. I didn't even notice it was swollen. A month of multiple tests later my doctors discovered that it was not cancerous. (Thank god)
Shortly after this my life went down hill. I found a lump in my breast and the doctor tested it which turned out to be non cancerous. After this I have belived that I have a brain tumor, skin cancer, colon cancer, and all sorts of other horrific things. This has gotten to the point where I cry every night and I don't want to leave the house in fear that I will break down in public. I had a break down at work but after it happened I told my managers that it just randomly happens. They don't know the real reason why I keep breaking down and I don't want them to know. I feel like a crazy person. My sister tries to talk to me about it but I don't like talking about my feelings. Growing up I was always the strong one who never had problems, i would be the one that everyone would confide in and I was always the one that got along with my parents when my brother and sister got into continuous fights with them. I have an autistic sister so her needs come before mine. I understand that. Im the only one out of all my friends who hasn't had a boyfriend because I dont want to put all my troubles on some poor guy. I've had guys ask me out and i would just stop talking to them. So I decided not to date. Now everyone is wearded out by the fact that im 18 and still single. Now I'm all freaked out about that because one of my friends mentioned it. Now after everything I feel like I have no one to turn to. I don't want to bother my friend Jess with it because she's having problems herself. My 'best friend's' ditched me for boyfriends or new friends. I don't want to talk to my family about it because I feel like they don't understand. They try to make me feel better but it just makes me feel worse. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel so alone | |
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Do this, for your future, for your sister cause i know she sees what you are going through and doesn't know how to help you yet you have always been there for her.
The world has a lot to offer you just have to allow it to surprise you and whatever comes you just have to learn to live with it cause i can tell you as a fact there are people out there who are worse than you, that you can not possibly imagine.
If you ever need someone to talk to you can just email me at hermanbusuru@gmail.com, i have gone through depression and it's something you never want to go trough alone trust me.
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