| | Posted by just a waste of space.. at March 17, 2010 |
to be a a person who enjoyed life..full of beans..and a positve outlook..
who has now become..withdrawn..depressed..and oh how i hate myself so much..
why..
all thanks to one person..who lied cheated and made me feel so unworth while..the more they took..the more they wanted..to a point there was nothing left to give..only my love support friendship..and even that was taken and spat right back in my face..
to have someone tell you they love you..while thinking and talking to another..is heart breaking..to have someone..tell you there at work when there really with another is soul distroying..
to have someone..tell you they dont have x2 mobile phones..and you find the one with all the nude photos on it..that is beyond belief..
i am lost and im hollow..and all i can say is..im standing at the cross roads.. |
| | Posted by Nargiz from pecb at March 17, 2010 |
My life suck lik hell!!!!! I like a guy from class 8 in my school but the problem is he liks me only as a frnd and i cant tell him anything.....every nite im crying cuz i only think of him....i love him sooooo much but he doesnt kno it!!!! My life just suck!!!!my parents r making me sickkk!!!!! they dont understand me at all they dont get that im already big enough to solve things my life is just a bullshit!!!!!!! if u kno wat to do plzzzz tell me!!! |
| | Posted by cloud strife at March 17, 2010 |
I am the steriotypical nerd. I live in the dark depths of my room. On my spare time I solve equations with my left hand and write in the death note in my right. I take patato chips...AND EAT IT. I don't have many friends. The friends I enjoyed hanging out with have girlfriends and most of the people im stuck with suck. College is the worst part. The funny thing is. The roomate i got is almost as anti social as I am. But this kid bitches about it every day. As for academics. I am considered to be an intelligent individual, without any common sense. E.i. I'm "book smart" or "analytical thinking smart" but I am not "socially smart" or "street smart." Is that it? No. To capitalize on my anti social life it goes without saying that I never had a relationship, ever. I have very little constact with women. I've tried to analyze the issue. The more I analyze the more i get confused. Until recently I drew one conclusion. I have at least two personalities. One is the smart, depressed, lazy, selfless person who believes that being sad is how I am, and that I am not worthy of happiness or love, and at the same time I want to believe that I am, so I try to make myself seem worthy by helping others. The other one is the smart, arrogant, selfish, and apathetic one. Still not too happy with life, but has little value over the lives of others. Has the belief that love is a weakness and that hatred will drive anyone to the limits. Also this personality has the bel... |
| | Posted by Guy at March 16, 2010 |
Im a guy. Ive came from a school where i had so many friends and girls. I was like the popular guy. I have a job, im a DJ for a mobile club. im 14 years male. I moved to a Private school the last months, and man, thats just shit, that ruined it all. My grades is getting better but fuuck, its ruining my social life. Im starting to loose contact with my old school, and those ppl are the only ones i like. Those on my new school Aar i just want to hit them. they dont bug me, bcus i put myself in respect, so they dont do me anything. you know. And i loose more and more friends. like.. Now im just chillin at computer. Ive done that all the time but.. my life has just stopped! nothing is fun, i usually go to events( big hardstyle and house events) and you know, thats the only place i feel alive. and thats every 1/4 of the year. It feels like i cant even taste really. sense. Smell. Feel anything. Im like a robot. I hate it. And my mom is like Uh ur not like me and dad blablabla, do this do that, AAR!. My dad is depressed he have figured to leave us and thats just. wanna cry. |
| | Posted by (-= at March 16, 2010 |
started cuttin myself bout 2 years ago still do parents wont stop yellin at me and wont except my girlfriend tried to kill myself too many times deppressed confused tired worn out all I have left is my girlfriend and my parents are doing all they can to keep her away from me my older brothers a drugee my little bro is annoyinng and never shuts up and I just feel dead inside.(-8 |
| | Posted by anonymous at March 16, 2010 |
5.16.2010
Today must be one of the lowest days of my life. Today I got that awful feeling “It sucks to be me” day. I can’t help but wish I was someone else but still keep the people that I hold dear in my heart. My 2 boys and my wife. They are the ones that keep me going each day. They inspire me to continue the struggle and aspire for the “that” day when I will be the one providing for them. That day when all I ever think about is them, nobody else. How I would spend my days, my nights, my triumphs, and my pains. Now, the triumphs I share with them. The pains I keep to myself because I don’t want them to feel how I feel. I don’t want to share with them the misery of being me. I don’t know if this is the right thing to do. But, all I know is that I love them and I want to protect them. I will lay my life for them. I will own this shit and I will keep this from them. I feel so trapped. Trapped in an awful place. A place where I see no hope. All I ever feel is how to get by each day without any tirades erupting. Without displeasing anybody. Maybe it’s my fault too. I try to do everything. I try too much, and too damn hard. I need to please everybody to get the appreciation that I truly deserve. When I do fail in a task, I am left to my own. It just feels that life is being plucked out of me each time this happens. I need to dance to the tune they play even if I can’t. Even if I’m incapable, even if I don’t like it, even if I just don’t feel l... |
| | Posted by lifesucksforme24/7 at March 15, 2010 |
i'm a 14 year old guy. i live in canada and my life sucks like hell! i have acne and i never had a girlfriend and most likely never will. i told this girl i'm in love with her but she doesn't love me. she doesn't even wan't to be friends. i could tell that the only reason she talked to me is because she likes to be nice to people and she was enjoying the attention. i lied to her and said that i've had girlfriends before because i thought that women like guys that had other women before. she stopped talking to me and ever since then my grades dropped( they were quite low already becuase i'm new to canada and i'm living with my dad for the first time, adjusting to there lifstyle and weather and i can't stop crying because i miss my mom and sisters cuz i don't live with them anymore. i've tried masturbation but when i tried it i didn't know that it was frowned upon by society and that in some religions its considered a sin. masturbation is also addicting. i tried stopping and i hate doing it but i can't stop. it relieves stress. but unfortunately not enough stress. i'm scared of the dark sometimes. i cry when i'm alone. i get teased because of acne. girls don't even look at me. the other day i was at the doctors office and his assistant nusre was strapping some kinda machine thingy to me and it felt good to have a woman touch me. other than that, the closest i've ever come to a woman touching me was getting slapped infront of about 40 people beacuse i asked this girl ou... |
I hate this fucking world around me. I'm so lonely frustrated i wanna give up on my life . I have only about 3 weeks to go for my entrance exam which could get me into the best college .........but i feel hurt inside ,so useless ,hopeless, helpless ,no confidence, no inspiration ,no motivation ,no determination .No one helps me out or support me or give some motivation u know like "u can do it" or something like that , even my parents don't support they come with their fucking estimations they never bother to ask what i like or what i want to do in life .Now im 18 and i feel like i've not used my potential to the fullest ,when i look at my so called friends i feel so depressed they study in best college have a boyfriend they enjoy their life .My parents scold me my brother teases me i dont have friends .But for now i want to make it in the top list in my entrance exam so that i could ran away from this stupid family and people ............but i lack inspiration it seems i've lost it ,its like of no use i sometimes feel like giving up everything and DIE. I wish someone special was there beside saying that i could it ,all i need is motivation and inspiration right now .Every single day i cry for some help and wish that everyone stops making opinion on me , i feel like im torturing myself ,funny thing is my best friends are my T.V and my computer(yeah non-living things ) at least they dont hurt you. PLEASE SOMEBODY HELP ME THIS IS THE ONLY CHANCE IN MY LIFE IT COULD CHANGE MY LIFE FOREVER I WANNA LEAVE THIS EVERY SHIT THAT WAS UNDERESTIMATING ME TEASING ME I WANNA MOVE ON ..........HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| | Posted by Allie at March 14, 2010 |
I am absolutely sick of my friends and family making me feel like some kind of freak when I eventually voice the fact that I have had enough of their inconsideration. I am not an angry person, in fact most people tell me I have too much patience and often comment that they would burst long before I do. So why is it that when I do get angry - and were not talking shouting and screaming (although right now I do feel that way) - just literally saying 'I'm fed up with being treated this way and I am not letting it happen any longer', my friends and family react by saying things like 'oooookay' or 'wotever u say' or 'you feel better now?' or 'if you say so' or 'fine, all while pulling a face like I am acting like a crazy lady. They make me feel like I am acting irresponsibly by setting a limit or voicing my dissapointment and it hurts like hell. Especially as these people are the same ones who think nothing of voicing their opinions left right and center, dont care who they offend and say things like 'well if they dont like it...'
Right now I am so hurt and angry at constantly being made to feel like a bad person for standing up for myself (after a lot of provocation). Im not sure how to handle what Im feeling or their reactions.
I just dont understand why I am getting this reaction and am left feeling guilty and confused. |
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| Posted by erika at March 14, 2010 |
hi i'm erika i'm seventeen and i don't know what to do with my life. i've never had a boyfriend, or even kissed a boy, but the worst thing is that if i were ugly i would have just accepted it, but i'm not...i'm not beautiful because i'd have to lose six pounds to get to my ideal weight but objectibely i'm not ugly. and that makes my feels like i'm wrong, like there's something really wrong in me, and even for others things. i've got friends who loves me but i'm getting sick of them, got a perfect life and family and i hate it...i'm a bitch...the true thing is that is not my life that sucks but is me! i mean a lot of people would pay to have my life, but i'm bored, extremely bored... i know that my story is not so terrible except for the first part, and that most people who will read this will hate me, but that was just for venting |
| | Posted by robbie at March 14, 2010 |
I am so sad today. Not that I am happy on other days. It is just that I am really sad right now. I hate crying, it never makes me feel better. My best friends are my two cats, Sammy and Tigger. I feel like I have nothing to live for. I could go into details, but I am sure I will get people who tell I have nothing to be sad about. It doesn't change the fact that even though I am a guy, I just want someone to hold me. I can't even not cry while I type this. I hate my life. I think I would be a pretty good boyfriend and a really good dad. I just don't want to get divorced. So I guess since I think about divorce I would not be that great of a significant other. Because if I was good ,you would think that I would stick with it even in the bad times. No, I give up to easy. I hate me. Everytime I see little kids I get sad because I know I would be a pretty good dad. But I just have this feeling that it will never happen for me. I hate being sad. It makes me even sadder. I wish I could've decided if I wanted to be born. But no, I did not get the choice. And know I get to live with it. I guess it could be worse. I only thought about death a number of times THIS winter. And with all of this rain in the last few days, I am suprised that it is not on my mind 24/7. I can hug my cats when I get sad, but I don't think that they get how sad I am. My heart aches. I feel like someone broke it. But I don't even know anyone that could. |
| | Posted by Claire at March 14, 2010 |
My life doesn't suck, but I can still have my schpiel: I feel like I'm getting no amount of respect from my mother because I'm a "teenager" and I'm "idealistic." She says it like it's some trivial phase. Maybe it is! But does that really give her the right to devalue it while it's happening! No! And is standing up for some moral stature realy as bad as being a corporate sheep!?! I don't think so!! |
| | Posted by Dré at March 14, 2010 |
Hey I'm Dré, and I happened to find love in the worst way possible.
I fell in love with a guy, first time, first time I really feel it's love... And he's straight. Of couse I'm afraid to tell him, there's nothing left to do, we became best friends and that's all I have. 8 months, and it's not getting better, can't run, I'm stuck, the more I want to avoid him, the more I get close... |
| | Posted by Bubbles at March 13, 2010 |
With friends like these who needs enemies?
My friends:
Lie to me,
Steal from me,
Break into my house and rob me,
Rip me off,
Talk about me behind my back,
Hack my computer,
Wreck my house,
Trash my car,
Use me,
Shoot at my house with a pellet gun,
Abuse my dog,
F*ck my girlfriends,
My girlfriends f*ck my friends,
steal videos/videogames,
Rent videos on my account and never return them,
Ditch me with no ride home,
did I mention the Lying and Stealing?
So now I only have friends who are bad people,
but I still need and want to have friends.
Otherwise I am lonely.
I love my Dog, my Best Friend. |
| | Posted by Byte at March 13, 2010 |
43 years old. Moved 10 hours away from friends and family for husbands job. Four kids that hate me unless I am giving them something or driving them somewhere. Kids tell me all the time that I am a frickin stupid idiot and they hate me.
No friends here. Stay at home Mom, so most days I am alone and talk to no one all day long.
Relationship is ok, we fight sometimes.
Friends back home could give a rats ass about me. No one calls, not even my best friend of 31 years. Nice to be loved, or NOT.
There are times I feel like I could disappear and no one would care, naybe they would even be better off....
Sometimes I just want to walk away and never come back. |
| | Posted by Nita at March 12, 2010 |
Okay I am a 37 year old mother. I just went back to college I get food stamps and it was either that or go to the unemployment office everyday to put in job applications. Well since there are no jobs I chose school' If I have even 1 credit hour under 12 I am told then work at the same time. I have been in alot of pain for years and was just diagnosed yesterday with Lupus. I came home from school today and my boyfriend says his son and him got in a fight and he is gonna "Take Off" for a while. We have had issues with his son for years now and he has had 1 heartattack no matter what I have stuck with him and never left and now when I need him most he says he is leaving. I can't take care of three kids go to school and manage a house with out just about killing myself. What am I gonna do? |
| | Posted by anonymous at March 12, 2010 |
Hi there, im Gracie and im in highschool and im depressed and very angry at the moment. Okay the story is that my four favorite bands are all touring together..i mean seriously when does that ever happen??!!!! The bands are coming at the end of the school year on a tuesday. But when i first found that out i was like oh okay well i can go to that its not a big deal. but then the worst thing of all happened i found out they weren't coming to my city and the closest they were coming is six hours away from where i live!!! Now i definitely cant go see them and im pissed at the world! There that's my story, i know it doesnt sound as bad as some of the others but you must understand that music is my life and i would probably kill myself if i didnt have my music... |
| | Posted by Damn at March 12, 2010 |
Got really huge pimples
Failed in a subject
ugly face
My friends mocking at me
Colleagues ignoring me
"Life sucks man"
Anyway i have to thank my Dad and Mom for being with me always........ |
| | Posted by Charlie at March 12, 2010 |
My sis is so anoying...
Mom always blame me....
Can't do what I want...
Can't wait to move out !!! I want freedom! Why do I have to wait so long!?!? |
| | Posted by messed-up kid. at March 12, 2010 |
If your life has been screwed up by someone else, pay it forward, and screw up somebody else's life... TODAY...
Hopefully, at some point, people will stop screwing up other people's lives...
(instead of putting up with stuff)...
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