| | Posted by Um at December 29, 2011 |
I have no dad. My grandpa's dead, No brother's No sister's. My grandma's ..I don't know about her. I hate my mom more then anything I have ever hated.
I don't live my life for myself anymore and the few things I do for myself just lead to more trouble I smoke I do drugs whatever. Those don't even make me happy anymore I have a boyfriend I feel I constantly need to please Even though he's my Bestfriend I feel like I'm constantly competing for attention I want to be able to relate to someone I hate this world I hate the things were expected to do I hate school. I HATE SCHOOL.I wish I could just die. I cut myself. I have since 6th grade. My mom still thinks it's just some sorta of cry for attention like she ever gave me any even though I tell her all the time how much it's not I honestly feel like she's the reason I can't be happy. She forced me into dance tells me I'm fat Tells me I'm ugly tells me why guys don't find me attractive.
My Bestfriend in the entire world. I can't even hang out with her in broad daylight. cause her mom hates me.
My boyfriend gets seizures. He once stormed out of the apartment I live at and the police were called I was in the bathroom crying all they did was yell at me to open the door flashed a fucking bright ass flashlight in my face and tell me how disrespectful I was being for yelling even though it was my boyfriend who was yelling.I JUST WANNA BE HAPPY that's all but it seems like something just doesn't want to let that happen cause no matter how many times things go right SOMETHING COMES AND FUCKS THEM UP. I've been told I'mm attractive by alot of people and it hurts cause honestly deep down in my heart I can't believe that ,I never will. I've had relationships they've all been ruined due to my trust issues. I'm not sure about religon anymore it scares me.
All I know is I wanna die.
There is alot more I can say.
But really.. in the end what those this really matter.
Thank you for listening though. |
| | Posted by anonymous at December 28, 2011 |
googled life sucks. here i am. wth. im 16 and im not normal. all my life ive listened to my mothers stereotyping of people and how much she hates everything. i told her to stop telling me this stuff cause its messing with my head. she didnt. my father scares the shit out of me. his emotions are very random. he randomly burst out in anger and yells like hes taking your soul away and it gives him pleasure to do so. he needs total control but doesnt have it so he goes crazy. he finally let his emotions get the best of him. he beat my mom in front of me and my little sister. he also unplugged the phone so i couldnt call the police. hes smart when it comes to not getting in trouble but stupid with everyday things like spelling. dont ever say stupid or disrespect him to his face. youll die. when i was young my friend touched me inappropriately. i ended the friendship. later her dad went to jail for raping a family friend. guess thats why she never let me sleep over. ive never been good at socializing. i sit there with a blank stare hoping not to break into tears. thats why i dont have many friends. they all think im an evil bitch but have never talked to me before in my life. i have major issues but whenever i try to tell my mom shes laughs and or yells at me and says im ridiculous. i think i need mental help. i pray to god for a full scholarship to a college so i can get away. but at the same time i am afraid for my sisters safety. if i leave shell never ... |
| | Posted by k-a.. at December 28, 2011 |
Well I am on the downward spiral for sure. About three months ago I came back from a 2 month trip overseas to race competitvely with a foreign bike racing team, was entering University and future was looking very stable and all plans seemed laid out. I got scared, lonely, and felt like I was only kidding myself. I quit the sport right away and hated everyone and everything about it. I looked only 1 direction down. I fell in love with being self destcructive. I get drunk alone and at parties (in which i dont even like the people its just an excuse to get hammered), I smoke pot every day and want to stop but love escaping for abit each day, started smoking ciggarettes for some reason. My parents care too much and it bugs me having them always on my fucking case. I wish they would let me drown or burn away in this basement!! When I look forward I dont want to return to the sport, I dont want to go any further into substance and I dont want to get any more depressed but at the same time I really dont give a shit...!!! ARGH theres my basketcase story...
sry for wasting ur time |
| | Posted by anonymous at December 28, 2011 |
I'm 18 years old and I am blessed with a loving and well to do family. I have been in a relationship with my current boyfriend for about 2 years plus and I am always having problems with him. 2 years ago i was young and naive and got into trouble which led to countless depressing break ups and quarrels. I betrayed his trust and had to live with the countless consequences every since. I love him dearly so despite being in misery i went along with everything he makes me do or doesn't allow me to do. After that incident he broke up with me for awhile and I was completely inconsolable and suicidal. He came back to me when he couldn't forget me because he really love me. Then it all started with his small requests followed by more and more unreasonable expectations but i accepted everything and listened to whatever he said. I was not allowed to socialize with any guys (Even tho i'm okay with it) but I have to go to school and apparently i study in a mixed environment where theres boys and girls and when it comes to school work i have no choice. At the start it was really really tough dealing with this and foolishly i got through it by lying about minor things. He eventually found out about it and i fell right back into depression because he claims that i broke his trust again and again. (I had not much of a choice?) After awhile it seems that he was still angry with me and he went out to betray me and broke my heart. I was devastated but I still wanted him so much so I had to... |
| | Posted by anonymous at December 28, 2011 |
yes, it is true, life sucks. If you are born into money, you may have no worries, but life still really sucks. If you lie and cheat, and screw people over, you may get rich, but your life still sucks bad. I have learned that everyone is selfish no one gives a S about anyone but themselves. Even happiness is fake, your life still sucks. We are all lied to, manipulated, and walked all over, and then you die. Did I mention life sucks. Atleast when you are cold and in the ground, then you won't know anymore how badly your life sucks. Do some drugs, get drunk, beat someone up, whatever makes you feel better. you won't ever get far from the fact though that this world is nothing but sufferring and don't forget, you are not alone, because I too know how much life sucks |
| | Posted by Same Shit at December 28, 2011 |
I am a 26 year old male that is here to say, life is a joke. Everyday is the same thing wake up do what your told eat shit and sleep. I am so sick of this same old lifestyle, I have been single now for the better part of a year, I have lost my job, my parents will not speak to me, and everyone around me seems to be better off than I am. I see happy couples in the stores and I think who's cheating on who. I see kids and think, you little bastards have no idea what pain staking horrors await. This world is going to end soon enough with the way things are going and I will be the first one to say bring it on already. I smoke weed just to pass the time, and it seems like the only good time I have is when I am so fucked up on whatever drugs I can find that I can not hold my eyes open. I realize my thoughts are random, but that's just the mind of a future serial killer. My girlfriend left me because I didn't ask her to get married or at least she says, in truth she had already found a replacement. I have nothing to look forward to with no money, no job, no companionship, just me and my random ass thoughts moving forward without a future. Oh well fuck it only thing I can think to do is bitch about it on this website before I lose my mind. People win the lottery, but not me, people die everyday, but not me, people make love everyday but not me. When is my time for anything? |
| | Posted by anonymous at December 28, 2011 |
This isn't going to be the worst thing that has ever happened to anyone, but for me, it's fucking hell. I'm 25, and just 2 years ago, I exited the Marine Corps honorably, moved to be closer to family, got a crap job to get things started, and found a barely-reliable car to get me to work for a year or so, until I could afford to get a better, safer one. Fast forward to today... I struggle to pay the rent every month, and probably won't have a place to live come New Years. I can't save enough money to get a car that is reliable in any sense of the word, much less eat more than once a day. I owe my step-father almost 500 dollars, and either way he thinks that I am lazy and unreliable. As I said earlier, I can only eat once a day, sometimes not at all, in order to have enough money to pay rent for the month. I was never good at school, barely got my diploma in high school, and am just getting off acedemic probation from the local community college. I used to be an MMA fighter who was proud of what I'd accomplished. Now I feel like an abused dog limping on the road and nobody is willing to help. I'm tens of thousands of dollars in debt, soon to be homeless, haven't had a girlfriend in 5 years, no self confidence or self esteem, family isn't willing or able to help, and my friends can't or won't help either. My current roommates either smoke and sell weed and live beyond their means, or drink themselves into nightly comas while living like hermits with no contact with the outside world except through facebook. The biggest problem with that, is that I feel myself becoming that way, and I don't know how much longer I can maintain sanity or health if this keeps up. No money, fucking useless car, part time job as a rent-a-cop, no food, and about to be homeless... Thanks alot God, you really do look out for those in need... asshole |
| | Posted by baby at December 28, 2011 |
I was searching on the net about relieving the pain of a loss baby then i got on this site. i'm 17 years old... when i was 16, i got pregnant. i was happy. yes, true, i'm very happy. honestly, it's the happiest thing that ever happen to me.. i love my baby so much and my boyfriend too, he's very supportive of me being pregnant. we've already discuss about baby names. but when my parents knew, i thought they will support me. but no, they didn't. they killed my baby. they let me take medicines on force. of course, what can i do? i'm so small compare to them. i tried a lot of times to hid the medicines under my tongue and just spit it when they won't see me. i can feel it very bitter but i sacrifice for it. but, they caught me doing it and so the next time they let me take medicine they had been so sure that i swallowed it. then, they made many ways for me to be parted with my boyfriend. and then, they won. my baby died 2 months in my stomach. my family is very heartless. they never feel pity on me and my baby.
until now, 7 months had pass, i still can't accept my baby died. i miss my baby everyday. since he/she died, i never found true happiness. everyday i cried. supposed to be this month i will give birth to my baby. and it made me so sad thinking i haven't done anything to help my baby. if only i had been strong enough maybe it's alive until now. i didn't even know if it's a girl or a boy. i keep on blaming myself that's why a lot of times i committed suicide.but, i... |
| | Posted by Me0 at December 28, 2011 |
I dropped out of high school sophomore year of family issues! I tried to get my GED but I have to pay for the fucking classes. And a rip off fucking 100 dollar GED test and I have to take 5 separate tests so thats fucking 500 dollars!! I don't have that kind of money and never will, and I dont have internet I steal my neighbors I lost my social life pretty much still talk to my friends on fbook once in awhile, but I can never do shit with them because I never have any money I can't get a job because of this shitty ass economy and when I do get close to getting a guess what?? I need my fucking GED or Diploma. Who fucking cares about a GED or Diploma it's just a fucking piece of shit paper with your name on it.
I'm going to see if I can join the army if I cant then fuck my life might as well jump off a bridge! |
| | Posted by anonymous at December 28, 2011 |
To start off I have had a broken right knee since october 7th 2011 it is now 12/28/11 from a car crash.. Since I have been ill they havent been able to fix it... Lost my job a few months before the crash, putting out around 5 apps a week give or take 1... No luck with jobs cant even get an interview and I am running out of places to apply in the area... I have had 2 family members pass away along with my girlfriends mom who just passed all at the same time. Also, cant wait to get this cavity filled.. Someday.. The messed up part of this is I know someone else has bigger problems and they are not ranting online about it.. I will say it does feel a little relieving.. So to anyone's life that is a little upside down, looks like we are stuck living hard until things turn around.
Oh yeah going from steaks and nice food and the couple weekly BBQ's, to the dollar menus really sucks... |
| | Posted by anonymous at December 28, 2011 |
For a while now i have been feeling like i just want to give up on life. When i look at my life i really see no reason to be depressed but for some reason i am... I just hate my life and the way it is going. I'm 19 years old, i have a loving family, i have never had to worry about going hungry or not having a roof over my head. I still live with my parents and right now only work a couple hours a week teaching fitness classes. I really like my job but the rest of my life to me feels miserable. My parents are constantly hounding me to get another full time job with benefits and stuff, but i dont want to for a lot of reasons. I pretend that i am looking for one and just cant get one, but to be honest i could get one really easily if i wanted to. I spent most of my time in my room at my computer playing video games or just sitting by myself. I dont really like being social, infact i consider myself pretty antisocial, I just dont like being around lots of people and i cant stand smalltalk.
I hate myself for being so lazy, I could get a job if i wanted to but i just dont want to. At the same time i hate being bothered by my parents about getting a job. It's like i am refusing to make a decision for myself and just continue to be in a limbo state in my life. I think if i kept myself more busy (like working or making friends) i wouldn't be as depressed, but its almost like i dont want to feel better. I just want to wallow in my self-hatred. I've tried to kill myself b... |
| | Posted by old but not dead at December 28, 2011 |
for the last 15 years I've raised grandkids doing the right thing for a daughter that could care less.married a guy 15 years younger than me (married second time at 43) who has been seriously ill for the last 7 years so no sex. i don't envy anyone that has to live with a sick person who you feel obligated to take care of and who doesn't even give a shit about how you feel. life sucks at 65 with grandkids that expect me to keep giving and married to a 50 yo male that can't get it up. dude this is not why i married you. i wanted a young guy who'd keep me satisfied. if i dump him then i'm the bit_h from hell for deserting him and not doing the 'wifely' thing. life shits on you and you smell like it until you're luck enough to die. |
| | Posted by Cheshire Cat at December 28, 2011 |
While I know my bitch story is really nothing compared to those I have read. Sometimes, you just need to get shit off your chest before you unleash at chances are, the person who least deserves it.
I guess you can say I'm just tired of being tired. I can't shake the feeling that I am the only responsible, reliable person on the whole damn planet. I'm trying so hard to find a roommate to replace the one I had to toss out because she decided that she was going to do it her way and not my way. Her way is what got her into the mess she was in. And since she was a friend, and I wanted to help, I allowed her to tag with me and my family across the country back to my hometown. I warned her though that the Midwest is nothing like the west coast. You have to actually work for a living, the world doesn't revolve around you, and no one gives a fuck what your problems are. Well she decided to do it her way, costing her her job because she didn't get her divers license and couldn't get to her nice paying job.
The only reason I took this house we are living in, was to have someone help pay for the rent. It's honestly costing me more to rent this urine soaked hell hole then the house I bought that in which I was forced to abandoned before we really went up shit creek. So here I am now, posting and posting on various websites trying to find a new roommate. Some total stranger that for all I know, is going to make my life even worse by trying to kill my family in their... |
I recently turned 17.I'm a girl, but I dream I were a boy. I'm a grade year behind, and currently doing horrid in school, though I used to be the smartest kid. I've tried to kill myself about ten times now..regret NOT dying. I'm addicted to Advil and Tylenol, I take about 15 every night. I have literally no friends, my parents barely notice me. I have a shitty job, where I'm hardly making minimum wage, just a quarter more. I don't have a license, because I am a "Safety Hazard", so I can't just get up and leave. I live in Texas, but hate it. I want so badly to just pick up things and leave. I've been searching for a new job, but no one wants me. I have no clue where I'm going in life. My life is like a really bad, depressing movie. They say once you hit rock bottom, all you can do is go up. But, what if you keep hitting rock bottom? |
| | Posted by anonymous at December 28, 2011 |
My December; has staff/MERSA twice, girl friend left me, then came back and currently has left again (bitch), have to get surgery, dad is still going thru cancer treatment, sister and boyfriend moved into my house (both jobless), 5 years ago on the 17th my friend was murdered and my other friend was stabbed, which is also my ex's birthday who was my first and greatest love ( I lost her cause Im a retard), and my job, which i loved so very much and had an amazing time everyday, closed today and 50 people are out of a job. And I'm in debt. Fuck, this shit sucks. |
| | Posted by Seth at December 28, 2011 |
You think your life sucks? MY life sucks. Forced out of work due to disability around age 40, I at least had a home, paid for, out in the country -- which my late father purchased for me. At one point, I got an equity loan, to do some fix-ups (while I was still physically able to do it.) At first, all was well; I knew damn well I was dealing with Mafia Mutual, it's what I expected, with lousy credit. I got along fine with them; then the feds busted them for (ironically) loan fraud, and the loan was arbitrarily given to Saxon. This company is a bunch of thugs that are only out to steal your property. I've been fighting with them for years, now. The loan amount, by the way, never seems to get any less -- 32 grand. (I actually got 25K in hand, at the time of the loan.) As health continues to go down the tubes, I'm trying to do EVERYTHING on less than $700 per month (let's see you do it!) If Saxon takes the house, I'll just burn it down and let 'em steal a pile of ashes. Nothing wrong with this life that either a lottery win, or a good 9mm hollow point, wouldn't cure. |
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| Posted by anonymous at December 28, 2011 |
anytime anything good happens to me it is followed by a let down. my husband is working in ND on an oil rig and finally we have enough income and insurance to try to get pregnant as we have been married for 6 years and have not concieved. now that he has been working there long enough for us to just get started with me taking hormone pills and trying to have a baby and rumor on his rig is that he might get fired, not because he's doing anything wrong but that he needs to do more than what his job description is. so now we have all these bills from buying a new car and medical bills and if he gets fired we will lose it all plus have to stop our efforts to have a baby. i am 27 and don't have many years left to try. i'm so stressed out about this plus on all these pills to try to get pregnant that make me hormonal and crazy and i don't know if i can handle this... |
| | Posted by anonymous at December 27, 2011 |
Ever since I was a baby. I remember my mother telling me that my life would be hard for me. I would have to work %200 to get %100. & others will only work %50 & get %200. I see what she means. I am sorta intelligent. Well I have built websites, Filmed stars, Promoted . & I'm still broke. I mean $0 in my bank account. I work hard & smart - I have over 20 talents. Only dancing has paid off. After being hit by a car that dream was dead .
Maybe I have a curse on me. Ever toy, Digital devise, & friend Gone. I brought a rc car it broke the first day. So I brought another one the next day. & It broke in 20 min... When I was about 10 I got rc car. That broke the first day.
What a Christmas. My uncle said our cars was on the same channel. Whatever.. I noticed what my mother said was true.
I will grow up to be nothing.
I had a job one time in a factory 10 miles away from my home. I was fired the 2nd week for being 30 minutes early. Not by my supervisor but by the main boss.
New factory New job had it for almost 1 year. I quit, I noticed only 1 kind of people get raises & promotion.
I seen it happen - 1 month work next month pay raise. But not me. Just remembered I been going to Supreme Cort for robbery for the past year. fyi I'm gonna sue. I didint do it They Have No Evidence. Why was I arrested. Mistaken identity. I heard that one enough times.
I want to believe I am jinxed Vodo or something. I pray but it things just get worst. I might do something crazy soon!!! |
| | Posted by sadday at December 27, 2011 |
I am a 51 year old male. My wife and I don't see eye to eye on most anything. I need support that she can't/won't give me. She is a recovering alcoholic and pain med abuser and during her dark times i was right beside her. The roles have not been reversed and I spent Christmas eve by myself looking over a cold winter lake in the country.
I have friends, but when I mention anything about our relationship, they bad mouth her or tell me to hang in there. They don't provide support or love but are more critical than helpful.
I am so lonely it hurts.... |
| | Posted by i've been there done that at December 27, 2011 |
Well I've been through it all heartbreaks with girls,dealt with family members being addicted to drugs,i've made it to the top with a mercedes, big time paying job, beautiful girlfriend and lost it all. Life can be tough, I've made investments that have gone no where and put me in debt so bad that I am still struggling to pay them to this day.Every month I am worried about how i am going to pay my bills and it's been like that for the past 5 years, I have no bank account because I can't save and don't think i'll be moving out my parents house anytime soon but through my years on this world I have learned that I ahve become a strong individual through these bad times in my life.. I laugh at my friends who complain they can't get the latest gadget or best car or newest jordans or can't pay there cell phone bill, please those are tiny problems compared to some people especially someone like me, I tell them want my problems probably not because they can't handle my problems....They stress over petty things that don't bother me one bit because i've been through more than them, so people complaining about small little problems you are weak so grow up because to me you all are still little young minded people...I'm powering through the negativity while most of you let it consume you shame on you, wake up and start being happy and follow your dreams because through all this I am still rising to the top..
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