I guess we are all challenged when it comes to compassion. I was surprised by the first posting on this site: I have more reasons to believe that life sucks, so you shouldn't...Maybe, but we both loose if we compete in a contest where the prize is pain.
I came to this site trying to find understanding and community in others like me, those who too feel and somewhat act like life sucks. This belief becomes a terrible feeling and an overwhelming driver to loathe oneself. For me, I cannot say when this situation got this bad, but I know my facts are here right now: lonely even in crowds, hopeless about future, happy for everyone else yet unable to find my own way, convinced that a sucky past will determine my future, and life wasteful.
I wish I can say is only me, but right this minute someone asked me if Im that unhappy that I need to share it? I wish I didn't. So, I stopped, then left the house, got outside, had somewhere to go for an errand, and found the small gift of temporary inner-peace in a meaningless yet purposeful trip to the store. Im not fixed, but i got a fix. And that little pleasure made a difference.
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