being different does,nt make you unique | | Posted by emodave at April 23, 2012 | | Tags: 2012 April Health |
god i hate life so much theres not a day when i wish i could wake up dead life have brought me nothing but misery what makes life suck so is the fact that i was born the different and i dont mean that in a unique way i was born a with a cleft lip and a learning disability i was bron a freak when i look in the mirror all i see is a monster growing up i never had a happy childhood it,s been nothing but struggles i,ve spend my whole school years with loneliness being bullied not just in school but out in the streets spending half my childhood locked in my room with the lights off afraid and ashame even now as an adult nothing have change when i still look in the mirror all i see is a monster i hate what iam i hate god so much for making me this way it seems like life is always gonna be this way i will never get a break the worst part about is i have goals but it seems like my dreams will never come true no matter how hard i try there,s just no reason to try anymore i was never ment to have dreams and everyday my hatred for life and god keeps growing and growing but is the hatred that i hold inside of me that makes me stronger not my faith in god and no matter how hard i try to be happy the pain can never be healed i whould never know what is like to experience true happiness i whould never know what is like to have a dream come true and i whould never know what is like to know love all i know is hatred and thanks to the world i dont put my faith and trust in no one especially god so fuck all of you see ya | |
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I know that the question why me etc etc is always in your constant mind but GOD is not to blame. He is the only one who sees past your disability and though you as well as the world have a different views of what is beauty, know GOD sees you as his beautiful child.
Turn your hatred to something better. BE a friend to those who are the outcasts and know why cause its us who better have understandings of what we go through. People with similar struggles like us needs our support. WE seek for comfort in the world thats full of cruelty and selfishness so why not give comfort to those who needs it as we know how it feels...
You are unique always remember that. You were born different for a reason and you can either use it for good or for bad. choices are always up to us. AND YOU know what WE the outcasts are the STRONGER people in the world! How many really of these normals popular people who just think life is all about fun can even last a second in our shoes? I think they be in hell by now cause they probably kill themselves but WE walk with this pain everyday yet we manage. SO hang in there cause though people like us are far away know that you are never alone.
I will pray for you and may God give you wisdom and peace you need. God Bless
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