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Posted by lost at April 16, 2012
Tags: Addictions  2012 April  Attitude

I feel so ashamed of what Ive been doing but I dont know how to stop. I wish my life was bad but its not really. Its that my addiction to pot has made me feel worthless and complete loser. Its within me to change but for whatever sad reason I havent. I have a 7 month old baby. Shes a really good baby and a joy to be around. Even she cant stop me from smoking all day, every day. I just want to be high. I often wish God would just kill me. Then she wouldnt have to grow up with a stoner mom. I lie to my husband too as he doesnt know that I smoke while hes at work or even when hes at home taking care of her. I hide it very well. The worst part is I breastfeed her in the morning so my bad excuse for thinking its ok is that I havent smoked for at least 10 hours and then once I do smoke I give her formula. Lots of people have told me its ok to smoke if I have 4 hours in between. Isnt it sad that I believe them. Please someone help with advice of why I have let my life become like this. I cant keep going like this. I want to die.


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By anonymous at 16,Apr,12 08:45

Anything that is effecting your happiness is a problem. The thing is nobody is forcing you to inhale. Take it one day at a time. Simply knowing it's a problem is the biggest step next to stopping. Good job. And yes, it's really that simple. Just stop. It'll be mentally tough but you have to be mentally tougher. It'll get easier after around a month.
By anonymous at 17,Apr,12 17:07

Thanks.
By Pseudonymous Secret Unknown at 22,Apr,12 00:33 Fold Up

Girl what are you doing you can't lve like that. You better stop your self before it gets worse. What you need to do is stop smokin flat out its bad for you its bad fo your kid and its bad for anyone who lives with you. Its also unhealthy to think like you wanna die trust me on this girl on all of it cuz if you start thinking like that your jus askin to die, the simple and easysoloution is to motivat yourself to not smoke like for example if yo don't smoke for. Whole week then you can take you and your whole family out to dinner or something nice like that you know what I'm sayin? Its just as easy as learning 123 I've never smoked before not planning on it but you can trust me 100% I help people all the time with problems like that I mean I'm not a doctor or anything but anyway like I said quit smokin motivate yourself do what ever you need to do to stop smokin then you'll. Stop thinkin like that and your life will be perfect


By anonymous at 16,Apr,12 18:19

You are lucky that you get to get stoned every day. I have this thing called a job where I can't smoke, or they fire me and I am ruined. In college I did many great artistic feats while under the influence and like to write fiction. Now I am stuck working in an office, creating spreadsheets all day.
By anonymous at 17,Apr,12 17:06

No I am not lucky. I also worked before going on mat leave and it kept me out of trouble and not to smoke. It's not cool at all to be the stoner I am. It' s pathetic.


By at 16,Apr,12 22:11

What the fuck is wrong with you? pot is not addictive, you are just a lazy piece of shit hippie fuck. Smoking pot is the dumbest thing in the world. I can tell it has already ruined your brain if you think your "addicted". Try booze or pills then maybe, just maybe you will have a excuse why are are a piece of shit mother. leave your baby at a fire station and kill yourself. Get Fucked Loser!
By anonymous at 17,Apr,12 17:04

I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. I obviously have a problem and I know what I'm doing is wrong I just don't know why I don't stop. I didn't smoke at all during my pregnancy and didn't even crave, so I know I can do it. I'm a very sad person and I have no excuse except to say I'm very selfish and yes a lazy piece of shit. I totally agree I should kill myself. My baby deserves better and so does her father.


By anonymous at 17,Apr,12 18:02

While your husband is at work, lets get stoned and fuck. I like eat pussy and ass while I am high;)


By anonymous at 22,Apr,12 19:21

I think talking to your husband about this problem is a good start. A partner is there to support you, right? In good and bad? So ask for the support you need and deserve! You are precious! You are a mom! You know the problem, that's half the work, next step, do something about it! Don't you give up on your baby! You are worth it! ALWAYS!


By at 22,Apr,12 19:52

Stop what you are doing right now and get on your knees.Ask JESUS to forgive you for every sin you have ever committed.Invite him to take up residence in your heart and soul.Ask him to become your lord and savior.Its that simple.Dont think about it.Like the nike commercial (just do it)
By anonymous at 27,May,12 07:15

Oh here we go with the religious crap. You zealots make me sick. You should take up residence elsewhere.


By anonymous at 20,Jun,12 03:23

Holy shit...its only pot. Non addictive pot. I have been on opiates for the last seven years and I am close to killing myself...


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