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The world would be fine without people and alcohol

Posted by Monkey at April 14, 2012
Tags: Alcohol  2012 April  Attitude

For as long as I can remember, any person who I've trusted has pooed on me from a great height. I've just lost my job from people back stabbing and lying, after attempting to return to work after a long time on the sick. I'm autistic, have bipolar disorder, and am trying to be a recovering alcoholic, as opposed to a practicing one. I feel used and degraded, and can't imagine being able to face another person again.
I see things that aren't there, my moods swing up and down regardless of medication. I have no concept if a person is lying to me, or what they're feeling at all. I get as much out of a physical conversation than I do out of a text based one. Apparently I'm easy to manipulate, as I'd never see it coming. Somehow this is my fault, according to those who have. Like being autistic means that people have a right to exploit your weaknesses in social interaction.
I fixed my agoraphobia by getting a dog that requires exercise outwith the house, so my love for her forces me out. I say fixed, I doubt it will ever be fixed. It's always there, I go through phases where it is easier or harder to leave the house, but it's never okay. We walk the fields in the dead of night where we will encounter no-one whenever I am able to. I am not lonely. I do not want people anywhere near me. I want them all to go away. They can't be trusted. They're evil. They're all out to get me.


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By anonymous at 14,Apr,12 22:15

I feel your pain .. i'm not being sarcastic or condescending. I'm a loner myself who has very few "friends", and have a hard time trusting others also... And i don't have the obstacles you've got.
Most people are self serving assholes with their own agendas. Even if one goes out of their way to be sincere & friendly & make little and big sacrifices to accomodate others, most people
look at that as weakness to be taken advantage of.

So i don't blame you for thinking that people are evil.
I hope, though, that you do find a trustworthy non-evil person you can relate to. Being alone all the time does suck.

By anonymous at 20,Apr,12 22:34

Cut the shit about all the mental illnesses you cocksucker. Your a fucken drunkard who is looking for a reason to drink you son of a whoremastering cowardly bastard. Grow some balls you mutherfucking piece of fecal matter floating in your own cesspool of life that you created. You whining twobit son of a useless bag of skin. Try being sober for a year you anal feltching semen drinking rump humper. Don't rely on diagnosis's that are not the root but the symptoms of your beer swilling whiskey sucking life

By anonymous at 21,Apr,12 14:03

It's an interesting concept on how your relenquished thoughts are debatable to infringe the brink of paranoia, as the above person stated perhaps the remnants of the alcohol still play a role in your feelings at this time, remember alcohol is a depressant and it can take years for your body (nervous system and brain) to recover. I would suggest a deterrent for the feelings you display: break the wall down, go out and make yourself available to a group of gay sado-masochistic bikes. Let them have an anal orgy with you until your rectum is a loose swollen gaping mess. When you get home in the morning, you will be ever so happy to be there with your dog waiting for you. You will be content by just staying at home and treating your sore asshole with topical antibiotic. You will be relieved that home is where the heart is and feel no need to complain about being antisocial thanks for listening, best regards.

By anonymous at 02,Jul,12 17:34

I feel the same way. I hate people and I don't want them around me. I don't even want to see them nor hear them. The best places for me are where there aren't any people. And I'm not interested in being with other antisocial people as myself. I don't care what people do. I just want to be away from society. A big roomy cave an island or a wooded area would be well for me. I'm always looking for destinations where there aren't any people.

By anonymous at 01,Sep,12 18:39

and my final comment to those of you who have harassed me is FUCK YOU ASSHOLES.

By Bubi at 20,May,16 02:10

Superb inmorfation here, ol'e chap; keep burning the midnight oil.

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