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Posted by Joe.P at April 13, 2012
Tags: 2012 April  Juvenile problems

Posting something like this is something I usually refrain from doing in-order not to sound like a whiny child desperate for attention. But I guess I'll take my chances.
I'm only 19, but I've been depressed for seemingly forever. I take prozac (and vyvanse to combat the ADHD) but nothing seems to work. Life is just as awful, just as fruitless as it were prior. I get good grades in school but abhor going. I don't have many friends (3 or so close ones). I would like to meet and converse with more people but being an introvert with awful social skills making a seemingly pedestrian task extremely nerve-racking.
I've lost the desire to do many things I use to love: Studying language, read, piano, to name a few. My hobbies have been reduced to sleeping and thinking. I would like to change, be happy for once, but something non-evident is preventing that. Ideologies? Maybe, I have yet to find meaning in life. Although I hate using the word "find" for life; happiness is not something found behind rock, it has to be created by one's self.
I'm sure compared to most people here my problems are trivial at best. I'm not paralyzed, nor have I divorced, never miscarried, never lost a close loved one and yet, I am just as miserable with my existence.


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By Arthur at 13,Apr,12 14:37

How long have you been depressed? Did depression slowly creep in or was it triggered by an event? You are still very young and have time to sort out your feelings. At your age social anxiety and emotional withdrawal are often part of the path to perspective. You may look back at this time in your life sometimes in the future and see some things you can't see right now.


By anonymous at 13,Apr,12 15:41

you sound like a smart person, so here it is, the book on the meaning of life:
Bhagavad-Gita
In a few words the meaning of life is to understand that you are not a physical body but an eternal soul, as we all are, under the command of the Supersoul (GOD HIMSELF), and that we are here in this planet and galaxy becouse of our past-lives crimes, to learn how to be better person and to help ourselves and others, i could go on talking but this is enough, do what you may with this info i gave you, this is total truth from the dephs of my heart, i have shed blood and sweat in this life to understand it, it would be an honor if i would help somebody as myself in a hard time... pardon my bad english its not my native language...

just understand that its hard to live this life without God, and our ultimate purpose of life is to reestablish our eternal and loving relationship with HIM, this makes our lives divine, i hope i helped, if not, im sorry
By Joe.P at 13,Apr,12 16:34

Thanks for the recommendation. I've actually read the book. While it's interesting, I don't believe In such things as an omnipotent god. In other words: I'm a heathen ;p
By anonymous at 14,Apr,12 03:05

So... you like to suffer... problem solved...
By Joe.P at 14,Apr,12 18:08

Because there's only "one answer" to life. Right?...


By anonymous at 13,Apr,12 16:14

I've been depressed on and off for as long as I can remember. Being diagnosed with dyscalculia (although I don't think the diagnosis was correct) was something that severely depressed me a few years ago. Working so hard in math and then learning it was futile was not my greatest discovery.

Being introspective is nice and all. But over thinking is never a good thing, this is what I'm having trouble with right now: Over thinking things


By anonymous at 13,Apr,12 21:50

ahhh im glad to see im not the only one depressed life sucks theres nothin i have to keep me from takin a pill to kill me suicide pill if those exsisted many ppl would take them


By NumbSkull at 14,Apr,12 05:48

Unfortunately I think over-thinking things is part and parcel of depression.

I've been there, got so bad that I became an insomniac, my mind would go into overdrive at night and prevent me from sleeping.

Anyways, no disrespect to others but I don't think sitting around saying your prayers is the answer to your problems. I'm a Catholic myself and I do believe in God but I'm a firm believer in the old fable "God helps those who help themselves." nobody can change you but yourself, the answers to your problems won't fall into your lap simply because you want them to.

TBH Joe after reading your post you seem to have a lot of positive things going for you; you're young, talented, smart and you have friends. 3 or so close friends is about normal, people may have lots of friends but it's the real friends that count the rest will come and go.

As for being socially awkward, I myself was terrible, painfully shy and never felt comfortable in large groups of people but as I got older I became much better at it, my job helped a lot with that since I had to deal with the public a lot, lol at first I was terrified but like anything you just get used to it.

Things got so bad for me at one point that I was having regular anxiety attacks and hadn't slept in a bed for month's. I knew it wasn't going to get better if I did nothing so I took myself to a counselor, lol I dreaded it at first because I didn't know what to expect, I kept thinking if I see a scented candle or hear anything about auras and shit I'd never go back but it turned out to be the best thing I could have done.

I had to take a few hard steps and literally force myself out of bad habits Id developed, not easy but the payoffs were so worth it.

If you really are worried about your depression then only you can do something, prozac will help but it's not a cure, and as long as the underlying problems that require you to take prozac remain untreated then you'll never be able to come off the stuff.

From the sounds of it you don't really know why you're depressed. M8 you seem like a clever guy so I think if you do decide to take a shot at it you'll do great and if you do have good friends and family that you trust then don't be afraid to turn to them for support. If you don't I bet you can still do it by yourself.

All the best :)


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