This story of mine is a little long, so I beg you to take your time and read it.
Before I start my story I apologize for mistakes you find in my typing, English is not my first language so please bear with it.
5 years ago when I was 17 I met a girl, she was 15.
I liked her but since I was too young it was nothing serious.
After so many efforts I could get her phone number and we became friends.
Gradually I started to like her and after 6 months of friendship I got my first kiss with her.
After that I deeply fell in love with her...
but things weren't going as expected.
Her father got a mission and they had to travel to another city located 590 km away from me.
It was hard so she decided to breakup with me...
I was depress, but after 1 week she returned to me and I thought that nothing had happened, so I started to love her more than before.
For 2 years we spent a long distance relationship, sometimes she had time to travel to my city and we had fun but she never stayed.
When 2 years finished, her father got another mission for another city located more than 900 km from me...
Again she decided to breakup with me because it was really difficult this time
but again she returned
Everything went smoothly till the last summer.
Last summer, suddenly she changed.
She said they're going to live forever in that city and she said that this time we seriously need to breakup.
She said terrible things to me such as: "I may be the best person for you, but you're not the best one for me" or "Don't try to understand my feelings, because you can't"
She blocked me on facebook, changed her phone number, deactivated her Gmail and she simply left me all alone...
I tried my best to get over it and after 3 months I was almost healed when...
When...
Oh my God, I can't even type it
A friend of her told me that she has a new boyfriend now
I seriously wanted to die that night, I cried, I yelled at myself, I hit myself and those were the only things I could do.
Now I'm here...
Trying my best to get over the pain in my heart
The only thing I know is that I deeply love her
It's been 239 days since she left me but I still cry and I still dream of her when I sleep.
I know this problem of mine is not a big deal, and I know that many people have experienced something worse than me...
But I just don't know what to do
The picture of her kissing someone else in my mind is the worst torture I've ever experienced.
I just need some help
Thank you for reading my story | |
maybe you can't forget this, but must learn to how live with pain and sadness and don't give up !
I'm really thankful that people care about others problems
I'll try my best
I promise
Believe me, I know. I'm the girl in the long-distance relationship who keeps breaking up with the sweet boyfriend.
I don't know why I do it. Maybe because, if life drives you apart, then things are not meant to be.
With time it will get better. Try to forget her, stop counting the days. Focus on yourself. Love will come again.
It is bad. So if you're reading this original poster, please take solace in me telling you that you WILL get over it and it WILL get better. Only with time however. Right now you need to live through it. You need to feel the pain for it to make you a stronger man.
If ever you feel like you're losing it read my post and repeat to yourself that it will get back.
All the best.
-Jack
Everyone here are really kind to me
I just don't know how to thank them
"Thank you" is all that I can say
best thing i can say is you need to find something that will take your mind of her. anything productive. personally i started to study again. its keeping me focused on that and im getting better results than ever. playing sports and hanging out with friend will be extremely helpful as well.
you need to be strong and understand that it is her loss not yours. she gave up a guy that obviously loved her very much. just hang in there and keep away from things that will remind you of her.
all the best wishes
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