I was laid off from a good job in 2009. Almost 3 years later I cant find a job. I am 48 yrs old. I have been selling things on ebay to make the bills. But I don't have much left. I am single (ex-wife left me 15 yrs ago). I have no health insurance, my credit is shot, living in a 1b 1b apt, no savings, no 401k (cashed and spent in 2010), no children. I was engaged to a beautiful woman in 2009 but she broke things off in 2010.
This is not how I planned things would go at my age. I used to live in a beautiful area of the country and life was so good back 20 years ago. Now I feel trapped and imprisoned by my situation that I really didn't have alot of control over. I have never done drugs, or been in trouble with the law, I always have tried to do my best in all things. It seems I'm getting my butt kicked in life for really no reason.
As a boy I grew up in a severely abusive household but thought I overcame that awful part of my life at 18 yrs old and was well beyond being subjected to emotional pain and abuse. What has happened to me in the last few years is driving me way down again. I feel like I am living in an invisible jail cell. This is not the way to enjoy living by any stretch. | |