LIFE SUCKS

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hey from start I have to admit that my english sucks , I am from Spain , but I think that you wil understan it :) ... when I was litle my father died in war ...my mum and I was completli alone ,more sad is that I don't remember him couse I was 2 years old when he died. We went to germani and lived there for 6 years , then we come back to spain , today I'm 18 and my mum get maried again , and I become a sister . She is beautiful ,and my new "dad" to ,,, but they just do not understand my life stile .I'm very depresd in the last time , I don't speak to my mum at all :( she is so voried , I just cant sleap at night , and I have so dark thoughts about my life , In every moment I can start to cry , I wrealy don't know what is wrong with me ,,,,In my past i had so many problems ( eating disorder , school problems , love problems , "fake "friends ) I yust think that all that ruind my heart and mind ... I'M not the same person i was .... again sorry for m bad english ,,, I just want to say ,,, people eberybodi have problems , and there ae days when you wish to day , but also I know that there are people that love me , and that will understand me ,,, NOW i started to visit a psihologist , and i hope she will help me to SMILE again . thanks ..I