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Where did he get he gun

Posted by Laura at May 30, 2010
Tags: Drugs  2010 May

My boyfreind started doing drug after we graduated from high school. I want to stop get help and I told I marry him if he did this for me. Two years went by I tld i was leaving him and 3 monthes later I told I was mgetting married he took out a gun and he threated to end if I wen through with my marriage he made good on nhis thret he killed himself with shot in the head. I did get married but the seen of my boyfreind killing himself plays over and over in my head and dreams he the before mother's day. I wonder if I could have stopped form doing this I wonder If he would gave the gun if asked him to. I don't where he got he gun the police aske me that I clled to plice and the paramedics but it was toolate. for him he prnouced dead at the scene. I am still married and have two children both girls I hope they never witness what I did.


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By anonymous at 30,May,10 18:13

Nobody should ever have to witness that. People break up when a relationship is not working. When a relationship ends, it is time to move on. People who commit suicide are trying to make everybody else as miserable as they are. Wondering what you did wrong will not help you, the past is the past. Get some counseling from a reliable source and move on with your life.
I have had to make some serious decisions in my own life. I realize now that although I can't change the past, hopefully if another similar problem comes up, I will have the wisdom to make a wise choice.


By anonymous at 31,May,10 17:52

I'm sorry you had to witness it but it is NOT your fault. Your boyfriend was a drug addict and it's not your responsobilities to safe him or change him or sacrifice your life for him.

You have to forgive yourself and stop torturing yourself for what happened. Focus on your family and your children!


By mary at 01,Jun,10 05:17

i once had a drug addict friend, there was NO way for me to help him.. i had tried a lot. Such people need professional help or even an institution, and in most cases not even there they find a solution to their problem.

For sure you are not responsible, he decided to kill himself, he was meant to end up like that.

Time will fix things, try talking to a psychologist, and focus on your life, don't allow his egoistic act to ruin you.

Be proud of yourself that you were not dragged with him into his addiction problem.


By at 03,Jun,10 08:38

It's not your fault but you should learn that threatening and ultimatums and acting strong are not always the right thing to do.


By at 03,Jun,10 08:50

I mean the part that I really don't like is "I marry him if he stops". You sound as if he is not good enough for marrying, and gave him a challenge. he probably took that as a treason, as you left him and went to marry someone else when he needed you the most.
I went through something similar. My GF (or so i thought) left me just after I lost my job, and called me a looser. I needed her to help me get back on my tracks, but she was too busy getting off with another man.
I didn't kill myself, but came very close. Your ex took the bad decision, but I cant really judge him. I still kinda miss the life I had, it was great
He should have found someone else to support him, you are not worthy of being his Girfriend. Some kind of way of helping someone... leave him and and marry another, and make it look as if it was his fault!
Anway good luck, the world goes on and time erases the pain.


By at 03,Jun,10 11:32

Uh sorry I was a bit harsh in my last comment. It is after all a choice we make, and I choose to live. Can you blame yourself for other people's choices? ... I think what you should rather be asking yourself, instead of whether you could stop this, is whether you were a good girlfriend (or friend) to him?
By God at 07,Jun,10 19:31

"...All sins are forgiven."

May the blessing of the heavens bless thy soul, child
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By anonymous at 26,Oct,10 10:02

u suck


By anonymous at 05,Dec,10 17:04

maybe u should have helped him you dumb cunt


By anonymous at 12,Dec,10 02:17

THE GUY HAD ISSUES!! FUCK HIM!! IT WASN'T YOUR FAULT!!HE SOUNDED LIKE A HEAD CASE AND PROBABLY COULD HAVE KILLED YOU OR HURT YOU ANYWAY!!

WHY WASN'T HIS FAMILY HELPING HIM!!


By at 23,Jul,11 16:31

Ah, i see. Well that's not too tircky at all!"


By anonymous at 12,Dec,11 00:23

YOU MADE HIME DO IT YOU BOYFRIEND KILLER SHAME ON YOU


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