My life sucks right now,
I am sick with Chicken Pox Influenza, Ross River Virius and a couple of other Virius. Have been for 6 months now and it ain't getting any better. In one semester of school I spent 50 days off of school; and the rest were like halfdays I was so late. I am tired and ill all of the time, and take 5 pills a day.
My school work is suffering. Normally I was like a straight A student but now I am a B, C student and hating it. I like to over achieve and get really stressed about heaps of homework. I even failed a few of my assignments.
On another aspect of my life, I have no friends that I can confide in, they are all into things that I am not and they are on a completely different page to me. I am at an expensive all girls school so I know I am a costing my parents too much and have to achieve well. My life with boy's is lacking because the one boy I have a crush on lives miles from me.
I also do acting and there is a role that I really want, but because of my sickness my director (who was always really nice to me) won't give it to me. But I think that is stupid because I always try my hardest to get to school on the drama days. I am getting better, slowly. But my director isn't very direct as well, he is very good with words, and I wonder whether he is just using it as an excuse to not give me the role because my acting is bad?
My parents also fight alot and bitch about each other heaps. I often get caught in the middle of it. Just today dad was complaining that no one but him picked up the dog poo (I no, stupid thing to get angry at) and told me that it was okay that i didn't do it because I was a teenager and therefore 'usless'. He then called my mum some colourful words to me (mum wasn't home at the moment). Then he stomped I think I cried for about half-an-hour afterwards and wished that my sister was here (she lives with her boyfriend).
All in all, I worry too much about things and let things get to me. The councillar tells me not to, but I really cannot let it.
I want to leave home, but I can't. I am only 13. | |
It is a very nice thing that you realize your parents are doing an effort for you. Did you tell them how you feel about the situation? I would talk to them.
About the dog poo, well, pick it up from time to time ;-)
It's not that of a big deal.. help a bit at home and you'll feel better with yourself. If you don't know how to help, ask if you can do something.
Parents always yell to each other, that's normal. When they stop, then you can start worrying LOL
Do not leave home! and yes, please, let things go! don't worry about every single detail in your life. I was like you too.. trust me it is not worth it!
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