LIFE SUCKS

what a fucking loser

i feel like if i dont get a girl soon im going to rape one. im 19 years old and have NEVER had an intimate relationship. im a fucking pathetic loser. all of the girls i ever tried to get rejected me . everyones always rejected me. this whole human race makes me want to puke. all of you disgust me with your made up rules of what you should and shouldnt do. you go around like zombies doing the same stupid ass repetitive thing every god damn day. you are pathetic . i am pathetic. i really want to crush all of you for what the scum bags you really are. your afraid to admit who you really are. you teach your kids to fear themselves and there desires at an early age. you work you eat you go to sleep. eat.sleep. shit. piss. you all make me sick.i ve tried and tried and tried again to get a girl i genuinely like but it always ends up the same way. me being an insecure little pussy and scaring the girl off. every. fucking. time. the only time i got a girl to stroke my dick a little was when i was "with" this fat ass manipulative ugly bitch.she kept on telling me we would have sex but never put out. she used me like the pathetic loser i am. so i cut that shit off. now the crazy ass bitch is in jail for assaulting her parents....on the outside i act good but in my heart im a real fucked up indiviudal. no one ever loved me. my dad wasnt there for me and my mom beat the shit out of me growing up from anything ranging from looking up porn to gettin bad grades in school.oh dont worry she always made it up by being a nice mom after words and saying how much she loved me. im a 19 year old sex less porn addicted ugly pedophile...who has the self confidence of a rock... who can ever love me ?