i have had anxiety and depression for 10 years. for the past five months its been worse than ever. i stay in my room even though i have a more loving family than anyone i have ever known. they have helped me through everything including taking me to doctors out of state, putting me in rehab facilities, and i have taken every medicine under the sun for anxiety, depression, bi-polar, schitzophrenia, etc. they hurt more than they deserve to over this and i cant stand putting them through this pain. but after all the attempts at finding something to fix this nothing has worked. so i feel hopeless. i dont believe in anything working anymore to relieve this pain. i wish my family didnt love me so much so i wouldnt feel so guilty. i love them more than anything and i suffer because of the pain i put them through. but i feel like the bad guy all the time because now they feel i am giving up because i wont go for more help. but what else is there that can possibly help? this is the worst pain and it is never ending. i feel tortured from the minute i wake up until the minute i go to sleep. i just need to get my thoughts out there to someone who will listen because talking to my family about it just hurts them more and i dont want to hurt them. i get angry at times too because they tell me i am giving up because i wont seek further help. but like i said i dont believe in the help anymore. anyone in a similar situation lke me? | |
I believe this is what they were refering to? Looks like a good idea, maybe something I should try, because I really wanna stay away from drugs myself. It's so tough, but deep down I know it's all in my head... it comes and goes, I'm lucky that every once in a while my head is clear and I'm happy and everything makes sense, I gotta get that feeling back...
New Comment