I don't know why I even came here, but while I'm here, why not share with you why I want to fucking die :D. My parents got a divorce when I was little. Thats not the bad part though. When they split up, my mother brainwashed me to tell a vicious lie about my father. Me, being way too young to realize, told authorities what she wanted(I was 6). That my father molested me. I grew up not remembering him, or anything really. I didn't even know if it happened or not, but I always doubted it happened. My mom always told me that he would beat her, and treat my older brother like shit. She told me he would come home drunk all the time, and sold all our things. Since they spent so much money trying to get custody of me, for some reason they all resent me a little. They always refer to him as 'the devil'. My dad regretfully had to sign off on me, releasing me to my mother, and leaving my life forever. My mother now moved in with a guy she had a child with, so she's stuck with him. Oh, and also all three of us have different dads. I was so curious about my father, because I though it was strange that all my memories of him were so happy. So I found him on facebook, using a fake name. I eventually told him it was me, and he was so happy. I cried that whole night while we caught up on facebook chat. I asked my mother if I could see him again, bad idea. She called my grandmother to come over and talk some sense into me when I got home from school. Oh, yah some other information: My mom is a pothead, so his her boyfriend. My older brother too, he likes to party alot. I wish he wouldn't have gotten into drugs, it changed my sweet older brother forever. He also sells pot to me, I consider myself a stoner, I smoke everyday. I don't think it changed me though. I have always been an introvert, until recently when people at my school found out I smoke pot and drink, it actualy gave me popularity. I don't know what to do! I want to go and live with my dad and his family, who live in a different state. His wife and her daughter and my little brother came up to see me. They were so nice, it kind of made me want to go live with them more. I know that if I stay here, I will start selling drugs. All my family does, it's like the family buisness. I feel like I'm an adult stuck in a child body. I think it may be, because, not to brag or anything, but I am EXTREMELY smart for my age. I have the highest IQ at my school, and somehow I'm still popular, even though I don't relate to anyone my age, i just fake it.::: okay, so if i leave, my mother and my older brother, my grandparent.. they will all never speak to me again if i leave. what do i do? | |
Life will get better it did with me:D
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