I hate my life, my job and people!!!
I moved to the US about 12 years ago with a woman who is now my crazy ex. For 8 years she was a self medicating drunk. I don't know how many times I came home and she was drunk. She was a binge drinker, and I have grown to despise her and the feelings are moving towards hate. I am a guy so sex is important and it was non existant or she wanted to have sex when she was drunk. What a turn off!! I started looking outside the marriage not for sex but for someone to have a normal conversation with, something towards a normal life. Well my ex was diagnosed with ovarian cancer which was removed by surgery and she was fine but she developed an addiction to pain medication. So instead of being a drunk now she was always wasted on pain meds. I know this sucks and I know there are plenty of people who go through this without cheating but I cheated on her. I had an affair with a woman and it was nice to be semi normal with someone.
My ex found out and since that day she has constantly rubbed it in. SHe made my life hell. I have a temper I admit that but I have never hit her, I have smahed a few things in frustration but I never laid a hand on her. Well I paid alot of money to get her off the pain medications. Well we went thorugh the motions until I got laid off and then she wanted to move to some island for the "ideal life" and as much as it sounded perfect someone needed to work and keep a roof over our heads. I got a new job which was demanding and she got upset one night when I didn't want to discuss (argue) about the "ideal life". I went into the spare room to lay down and the next thing I knew there was a knock on the front door. It was the police, she had called the cops for domestic violence. I was arrested and hauled off to jail. .
I came home and found everything of value gone and my clothes in a pile of water all moudly. I managed to get the job from hell back and I worked but becuase she took everything including our savings I was evicted. I now live in a crappy motel where drug addicts and hookers frequent. I have no car and have to take the bus,(if you have ever taken the bus in LA you know what I experience, I have not had sex for 5 years now, not even dated, I have the job from hell with a crazy boss. I really just want to give up and I would if it were not for the dog.
I hate my life!!!!!