I was the most confident person on the planet. Then 10 years ago my girlfriend had a still birth with what would have been our 1st child. I had to be there for her whilst she was in labour for 9 hours, knowing the baby was not alive. It crushed me. I have a supposidly good job, teaching IT to delinquent children aged 14-16. I now have 2 boys and 1 girl. They are amazing, but I am constantly haunted by the loss of my 1st child. I have lost my mojo. I go to work and come home, same old routine every day. I used to play football 5 times a week. Now, if I play once a week then it is a big deal. No one cares about how the man feels when a child is lost. It's all about the woman. Whilst I appreciate that it was my partner that had the baby, I would of been it's amazing dad. I no longer smoke or drink. I am mr super boring. Lost Lost Lost. | |
If you started playing video games with your kids, then you will have fun. Too childlish? No, playing video game is mainstream now, normal people play video games that are stimulative, competative, and multiplayers. Smoke and drink make one a bad roll model anyway. Those friends you lost for not intoxicating your-self are not the right friends for a father of good role model.
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