I have been here for 30 years. I have tried what seems like a world of aspirations. I have been overjoyed and hopeless. I have been enthusiastic and desperate. I have been full of life and totally empty. I'm at the point now where I am not any of these things. My life took a major turing point a few years back and I'm attempting to deal with that. I have traveled, had a variety of partners, truly been in love, had a full belly every day of my life. I live in a country with hot running showers! I am on the cusp of finishing a degree and starting a career for myself, I feel a little old to say that I have not met "the one" and started a family yet, I can't seem to stop talking to my ex (very stupid, i know) and i feel like I've run the gammut of thigs to imporve my situation (be positive, therapy, eat well, exercise, have good relationships, dont sweat the small stuff, moved away from my parents, self-help books, alanon, drowning myself in work, got a pet, ill be volunteering soon, i work with people who are much worse off than myself....) and yet I fee lthis nagging meaninglessness and dissatisfaction. its not dissabling, its not crippiling me publicaly but inside its awful. what else is there? what else am i supposed to try? should i just become accustomed to this state of being? any suggestions appreciated. id really like to move past this stage and onto the next. i know i and all the people on this site have a lot to offer the world, the question is how to get over this hump to do that. | |
Or you can deny him and keep living a meaningless life, even if you hit the jackpot you'll still not be satisfied. Why do some Lottery winners end up hating their life?
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