Every since college, my life has spiraled down hill. I'm a teacher with a Masters degree and I'm always broke as hell. My wife won't listen. I married her because she got pregnant. I want to do the right thing since she already had two children out of wedlock with two different men. She had her tubes tied when she had my child despite my wishes. Now I can never have another child, but I call hers my own. That was ten years ago, but problem like that don't go away. I'm a former athelte who will never have a son. She quit her job to go back to school. She was obviously focused on other things while she was in college. Now the water is cut off, the gas is off. She hasn't worked in a year, but when I mention it I'm a jerk. Everyone wonders where my money goes like I'm a damn crack head or something. I spent most of my life loyal to Christ and GOD. I was a deacon, sunday school superintendent. Its all the same. My life sucks. I used to be pretty good looking, but now I'm bald and funny-looking. I've sacrificed the best of me for a woman who is out for herself, and won't even help me as I take care of her and her kids. I used to smoke weed daily just to get by, and I can't even afford that anymore, so I tolerate life as is. No help in site. You see, my life really sucks. Worst ... if I leave her., I will have to pay the child support that she doesn't even make the real dads pay. The sex sucks because she basically lies on her side. Lately, I've had the desire to wear women's clothing. I'm all fucked up. I think she has bitched me out. My mom passed a few years ago. My dad acts like he never had kids no that she's gone. I have no one to borrow a dollar for if I need it. If I ask a minister, everything that is happening is my fault because I'm the man. I can't go on like this. I'm at my lowest today. Life sucks big time! | |
I think you need to stop feeling sorry for yourserlf and start taking charge. You are not a jerk just becuase you ask your wife for help. she's suppose to be your partner and help raise the famliy and help keep the lights on and food on the table. if she's not doing that, then what use is she there if she's self-centered and isnt attributing to anything? she's almost like a 4th child.
I really think you should talk to her and MAKE her understand your misery and problems. she needs to get her butt out there and help you. You are doing no good to the famliy either by being miserable all day and trying to smoke weed to fix your problems. It is better to seperate then being with a woman who makes your life very difficult. If you have to pay child support, see if you can work something out with the court. tell them that you have been the soul provider for a long time, you've had money problems and this woman has done nothing to help you. the kids deserve to be with you since you have done so much and have put up with so much.
There are times in your life where you just have to put your foot down and say "no more". Do you honestly plan on spending another year or more like THIS? don't let people use you and start making good decisions in your life. Ask God for help and guidance. Its times like these where you have to stay close to him and rely on him for help.
Let her figure out how much of an asshole you were once she realizes she's living like a homeless person since she decided to quit her job and go back to work.
And screw what church people think. All they know is gossip and money. They'll try to guilt trip you into staying together because couples make more money to donate, that's all. F 'em.
Time to start over and let the useless bitch sink or swim.
support.
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At the very least it couldnt hurt the fucked up home life anymore then it already is.
Get a paternity test (three different children by three different unmarried fathers. Face it. You're wife is a slut. Likely it isn't yours)
Knock off the weed. It's killing your ambition. I know it momentarily blots out the misery, but it also prevents you from doing anything to move forward
Wear women's clothes if you want to. It's 2012. No one cares about transvestism anymore. Plus it will fuck with your slut wife's head.
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