I'm 20 . I live with my mom . the friends I've had has never been true . the only man I loved cheated on me and got another girl pregnant . now he's locked away . every since he left I've been diagnosed with anxiety , depression , and has always been bipolar . all I want is to have someone love me and hold me every night how I had for 5 years . I like other boys from time to time . They just don't seem to like me . I've tried so hard to prove I can be a wonderful girlfriend or possibly a wife to someone out there . I'm tired of waiting patiently tho I do have time . I just want someone to be mine and to belong to someone . Tired of being lonely and depressed . being suicidal is not good at all . I hate feeling like suicide is the best way out . in high school ppl called me weird everyday . I feel that I'm a food person just different from literally everyone . nobody accepts me for me . I feel like a disappointment to me family because I haven't don't anything with my life . ): it seems like my life got way worse when I graduated . never thought I would have graduated . Mom or nobody had faith that I would . that's the only thing I have to be proud of . So many bills already & those are so serious they cause I big part of my suicide thoughts . it seems so easy to end it & have no worries ever again . But my mom says after death we live eternity . I don't want to spend forever in hell shit I'm already here and want to end this pain why make it worse . | |
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You don't need a man to feel complete. A relationship will come along. It will. For now focus on some other needs. Stabilize yourself financially or in your home. When you feel secure and safe, it's easier to attract a mate. People wear their stress on their face. Make a plan and go after it and don't let little things discourage you.
Financially, if you're working, start a savings plan so you can pay down the debt. You won't believe how free you'll feel when it's gone. It's like being born again!
Keep yourself happy and safe. Every day set time aside to do something calming. Walk your dog or read a book or draw a picture. If you like to cook indulge and cook an elaborate meal once a week. Listen to music while you tidy up the place. Make the little things enjoyable and distracting. It'll make everything better.
As you develop a game plan for addressing these problems, think about the kind of man you want. (Be realistic!) Try going to a singles night (at your school, your job, your church, your community events, even one where you buy a ticket). It'll happen. And don't try to keep a man who treats you poorly. You deserve fidelity, love, and a long-term relationship. Don't accept abuse of any of those things.
if tha wants someone who cares abowt that i will, im 18, but i fear im not pretty enough for tha, im not pretty enough for other lasses
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