56 years old, two years of college, no friends or family I can turn to. Unemployed again, three months this time. I'm fortunate enough to be getting unemployment though that's only good for another couple of months. I had a good job, cooking and barbacking a few nights a week, so I had some money saved up.
From the first day I started looking diligently for work as best I could. I polished up my resume as best I could and from then on spent several hours a day scanning the listings on a number of the largest online job sites in search of anything for which I was even remotely qualified. I live in a large city so most days I was able to find two or three local jobs listed. I submitted applications and a copy of my resume for all of them. A couple of times a week I drove to the state employment office to look at their lists of jobs and to just talk with someone, trying to find some guidance to help improve the odds of my finding work.
It's been three and a half months now. My savings are all gone. I'm still getting $187 a week in unemployment which doesn't even begin to cover my living expenses. I have a housemate to share expenses with and have cut my spending back to the bare minimum and it's still not enough. I had recieved an email from an IT Staffing agency on Tuesday, looking for someone to fill a position with a local firm that looked quite promising but I learned this afternoon that the position had gone to someone else. No other prospects at this time.
The rent is due again in a couple of days. I've been putting what little money I could from what I get from enemployment towards my share of the utilities so there's only about $50 left in checking and a $20 bill in my wallet. Now my housemate, who's 67, is talking about packing it in and moving to Florida to live with his daughter.
I might have been able to find a minimum wage job somewhere but what's the point? Impossible for a single person to live on that, even more impossible to get by on unemployment alone. Or, if it is possible, it's a trick I never learned.
Feeling lost and alone. I've never been homeless before, never felt so out of options, never felt so utterly defeated. and yet, somehow, I can't bring myself to just give up. I have, at the least, until Monday the 2nd of January, to engineer some kind of miracle. On the other hand, I've been trying my hardest to get my life back on track and have accomplished exactly nothing, which is making it prtty hard to feel very optimistic about my prospects.
So what do I do now? Pack up what I can in my car and move somewhere else where there might be better prospects for employment? Where exacly is that? I read the news and it sounds like everyplace is suffering. Not that it matters, at $3 a gallon for gas (if you're lucky enough to find it that cheap) I wouldn't get more than a few hundred miles before I ran out of money for fuel. That's not far enough to get anywhere I could see being any better than where I am now. I could sell my car and everything else of value that I own and buy a bus ticket. But still, where would I go? It's not like there's anyone anywhere who'd be glad to see me if I showed up at their door and lacking a car I'd be even worse off when I got there than I am now. No, I guess I'm stuck here.
I guess it's time to grit my teeth and hope that the next few days will bring me some kind of miracle. Or, I could wrap my arms real tight around a cinderblock and go jump in the river. Nevermind, not quite ready to do THAT yet. | |
YOU suck it up. It's not my fault your an idiot.
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I know life is hard for you right now but don't give up. I could only offer my humble advice. I pray that it would help you. Here it is.
1. Try to hold on a job.
2. Save & don't waste your money on unnecessary things.
3. Take one step at a time. Build things slowly. Your savings, relationship or other things. It's perseverance that matters.
Good luck,pal.
Best regards,
Kevin
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And as that clay is placed upon that turning wheel, the potter's hands then begin to pressure the clay and work it until he makes something beautiful out of that old ugly piece of clay.
Here's the lesson God wanted Jeremiah to hear: He is the true master craftsman. He is a potter who is making something beautiful out of every life. He will take the old ugly mistakes and sins and make them into something completely new!
When you truly know God, you can live victoriously! So whatever the ugliness is in your life, be assured that through the blood of Christ, God molds you and makes you into something beautiful!
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