I have this huge pressure to do EVERYTHING perfectly. But I can't. No one can. But my parents, my friends, family friends, neighbors, they ALL EXPECT ME to become this world famous celebrity and make them proud and bring in lots of money and get married to a good, hard-working, rich person. If I get a score in the 80's for a test/quiz, there's that annoying GASP and WHY DIDN'T YOU STUDY HARDER? WHY COULDN'T YOU HAVE DONE BETTER THAN THIS KID OR THAT KID? I hate all this pressure. At school, sometimes I do before I think, and that gets me into so much trouble with my friends and relationships. I wish I could have better common sense before I do something, but no. I just plunge into whatever's gonna ruin someone else's plans, dreams, etc. I wish I could retreat to a world where grades don't matter, pressure doesn't exist, your social ranking's not important, and peace thrives.
I've always wondered about slitting my wrists. Some say that it's wonderful, your troubles just flowing away, even if that pain still lingers. Others say it brings you back to your senses, to the cold, hard truth: you just have to keep on going. I want to, but I don't have the nerves to do it. And everyone would find out.
And also, great. I got dumped. Because my boyfriend doesn't have enough time for me. And all my other supposed friends say I deserved it. Maybe I did. But he also ignored me. And I could never forget him for that. I loved him. But love, love ends quickly. Love flies away like a gypsy child in the nihgt.
And love, love doesn't stay for me. Love won't wait for me. | |
Best regards,
Kevin
If you ask for forgivness for your sin and accept Jesus as Lord and Saviour you will have LIFE, eternal life. Jesus will help you, care for you, change you (and your life). His love is everlasting, no matter what sins or garbage you've been, in he will forgive you, and love you with love that can't be compared. What do you have to lose? atleast give it a shot. God exists, big bang theory my ASS what created the darn thing? God did. God uses the weak, the powerless, the hurt and the lonely in GREAT ways. Heres a word from Jack Graham: A potter will take a helpless, lifeless lump of clay and then knead it and squeeze it until it's soft and pliable. And then when he gets it just right, he takes that piece of clay and he does something called throwing, where he places the clay on a spinning table.
And as that clay is placed upon that turning wheel, the potter's hands then begin to pressure the clay and work it until he makes something beautiful out of that old ugly piece of clay.
Here's the lesson God wanted Jeremiah to hear: He is the true master craftsman. He is a potter who is making something beautiful out of every life. He will take the old ugly mistakes and sins and make them into something completely new!
When you truly know God, you can live victoriously! So whatever the ugliness is in your life, be assured that through the blood of Christ, God molds you and makes you into something beautiful!
There are thousands if not millions of people that can testify to jesus saving and changing them (and their life for the better!).
New Comment