I'm not going to 'beat around the bush' here, there's no fucking point anymore. About 2-4 months ago (I don't know the exact timing..), Well, at the start of my school year. I fell in love for the second time. After being single for the past 6 years, I thought, KA-BOOM we're in with a chance here! I was wrong. She said no. Apparently, she didn't want to lose what we had (tbf, at the time wasn't much.)
Weeks later: She get's a boyfriend. I wasn't to pleased with the idea so I told her. And him. And everyone (Look, now I'm telling you guys!). As you can imagine, didn't go down to well.
Ever since that shitty day, things have been going down hill. Like fucking fast. It's been, what, 3 months since she's been in a relationship. It's only recently I've discovered some even more heartbreaking news.
We had an argument, which lead her to blurt out that when she's with me, she feels like she does when she is with him. Now, I asked her out first. And yet, She said no. So, if she feels towards me like she did him, she choses to break the one she trusts more's heart: Rather than the one who she's (I quote from her) "most probaly not going to know for all her life"
Now, I don't even know what the hell is happening anymore. I have stopped eating, I used to have a massive appetite, now, I can't finish a fucking sandwich (And I really do like sandwiches). I've been a depressed annoyance to everyone.
I keep telling myself to move on and grow up. But how many of you know what it's like to be in love and then decide one day to fall out of it, it's not a nice feeling, and it's not easy to do.
Some of you'll say this isn't a problem. You'll get over her eventually, like everyone else says. But, if you've ever had butterflies everytime you see the person who makes you feel special you'll understand. Just imagine not being able to do half the things you want with that person and you've got the right idea.
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