LIFE SUCKS

So sad, hurt and lonely

My husband ended our 11 years together (we have a 3 year old son). He did it the day after I had a lymph node excision looking for lymphoma. After the surgery my facial nerve was affected and it looked like I had a stroke. He walked in said-"I'm done with you". I urged for him to go to counseling and he refused, stating "No amount of counseling will make me want to be with you ever". I now have to move to another state, have few friends because like an idiot I put everything into him and my son, neglecting anything for myself. I feel so alone and lonely. We are in the same house because of financial reasons and I have no medical insurance so he is staying with me over the next few months till I finish my school program. I realize he is a total piece of shit but it is so hard for me to let go of him not loving me anymore when he is living in the same house. I have never felt more alone, even though I have my son and my husband living in the other room. I feel so lost, so angry, hurt and sad. I want him to one day feel the pain he has put me through. Karma is a bitch and I hope he gets it 100 times worse than he did to me. Asshole! I know it is for the best-I deserve so much more but I still feel so sad and lonely. Good thing I started an antidepressant-I still fall apart at any moment and my husband just looks at me like I am a pathetic goon. I know a year from now I will be doing a lot better but the pain is so much now and I feel like I can't take much more. But I know I will and hopefully a year from now I will be looking at him like he is pathetic goon while I have a hot man on my arm who appreciates me. I am 8 years younger than my looser husband-Suck it asshole!