i don't know wat i must write.i just think my life really suck!!i am 21 years old and i never have boyfriend and maybe i will never have that!!ever since i am in my mom stomach ,she already doesn't want me!she ever try to end my life,but in the end i still born,maybe i should not born in this world!even i born noone like me,even i die noone will care about me!!i hate my life and it was the truth.i don't know wat i do everyday,go university then back and end in my room and sit in front of my pc until the night come!!i just want die.i think to end my life many times but i am not brave enough to do that but maybe soon i will do that.everyday i feel like a shit,i don't know wat i do in here , there is noone day i never thought about die.even i am here ,i feel noone will notice me because i always be invisible,everyday i see my classmate and many peoples, and i always think why they can be so happy,laught,have many friends,being loved and i can't.i always feel that i will never be loved by men or by friends.the truth is i always feel alone and noone want me here in this fuck world.i always hope i can be other person,maybe i want be like my cousin , we grow up together and our age just different 1 year , i always thought how lucky she is, she always get wat she want,she is beautiful,have many friends,being loved with many mens and of course she love her life and look ,how different our life and how envy i am with her life.i always put my mask,and let other people see,i am always be happy,i am a strong girl and i don't care if noone like me but the truth i just tired and want cry.there is many people in this world but why me feel like this.i hope i would die soon
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But be strong. Find that special someone. Beauty isn't everything. When the door is closed, don't wait for someone else to open it for u, open it urself. make friends. why r so many people saying god is the answer to the dilemas. U change ur own life, take control, embrace it.
best of lucks
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