I'm a 42 year old kidney cancer survior (only one kidney now) with no health insurance, no money, no job (layed-off six months ago) and my wife of 20 years cheated on me and left me recently.
I've been living off my fucking credit cards which have now put me deeply in debt. I also own nothing of value and have no savings.
I'm living alone in a one bedroom apartment and have no support system of any kind.
My best and only friend died of a herion overdose 10 years ago and I really don't have anyone else (except my cheating wife). I don't even know anyone in the piss-ant town where I have now lived for 2 years.
I have no friends, no family to speak of, and live 1500 miles from my closest relative.
My rent is paid until the end of the month (credit card) and then I'm completely screwed.
I can no longer juggle the bills and my cards are now maxed out.
I applied for food stamps a month ago but I have yet to receive any assistance and no one at DSS will even let me know WTF is going on.
I'm due for cancer testing in April (which I cannot afford) but that is the least of my worries. (I actually HOPE I have cancer again.)
I'm skilled, but I haven't even be able to find a job washing dishes.
Soon my leased car will be repo'ed and by the end of the month my credit will be in the shitter.
I would beg God to help (or maybe to mercifully kill me) but I'm an Atheist.
I am in utter dispair, I struggle not to break down each minute as painful thoughts and emotions flood my thoughts, I am horribly lonely, can't sleep, have no food, and feel like the invisible man.
Could be worse right? LOL