ever been so board with life that every day hour week month year has not changed since i got booted from school , with no1 to talk 2 or help sovle my issues , with bi-pola and susicidel thoughts every day , i cant bare to look loved ones in the eye no more, i have burnt almost every bridge i have. dont trust any1 , no1 trusts me , always taken the easy way out . school moneyy friends , been a drug adict since i was 13 now 23 . drank alot , gammbled more than any other person i no , lost and won more money than any1 i no . no respect for money , stoped gambbling and using drugs / drinking thinking it would help get back on my feet but all that happens is i relise how fkd up i am and wish i had the money 2 go out and get fucked . now with a few notes left no mates , seems every1s grown up and left what trash they had behind. only ever wanting somthing when u speak 2 them . no friends no gf no money , drug addict , gambing addict how i can i blame others for not wanting to no me , i cant , all my foult . wat the fuck 2 do now.... seems 2 me im fucked after 3 weeks being sobar | |
I'm still a college student but sleeps at 6:00 in the morning each day , get up at 2 p.m. in the afternoon.skip the class, play boring computer games. watching videos just to kill the time. I'm on the process dropping a course. Missed most of the homeworks, now the final exam are coming I know nothing about them.
shutting myself at home all day long, almost eat nothing great bad habits, lazy to clean myself and room. let near friends disappointed.
most of all, hate my self can't control myself from sucking life. also all day suiside thoughts
hope an end to this life not an form of death
There once a research: If you can change yourself for just 2 days, you can change that for a week, then, longer.
I hope it to be true, I hope there is chance for me to survive 2 days as not too suck days. even I failed 10 times
hope it works for you
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