i have two brothers that used me to help them accomplish themselves and than both in a drop of a dime forgot that they got to where theyre at with help of others, one brother has made it big for himself and never looked back, and i resent him and disowned him because i used me and dropped me like sack of bricks once he didn't need me and left me with nothing, another brother was my business partner in which i took him on as a partner to help him get off his feet. but he ended up losing all of our companys assets and inreturn left me with the debts and took the business contacts for himself, so i became an agry person, and got myself into a bar fight where i almost came close to killing someone, now at age 29, i have nothing. no money, no income, no support, i could be looking at jailtime, why even go on, i used majority of my prime years helping others and in return this is the thanks i get. my girlfriend left me because shes a bitch that didn't wanna hang around when times are rough. my friends are no longer friends because i have nothing to offer. i wanna just give up . i have no reason to even wake up some days. the glass is half empty. i would consider just ending , but i'm not man enough and the end result would cause my parents to have a heart attack and prolly follow in my footsteps, worse of all i dont even think anyone would care or miss me if i actually did just die.
i go to sleep at night and wish i dont wake up...life just sucks right now. why even make the effort if the end result is gonna get me back to this shitty feeling i have now. still waiting for karma to work its magic on me. because life certainly has not been fair to me at all!