Life is cruel..
I really trying but seems like there's someone up there who really wants to see me fall. I mean I'm not a bad person, i'm such a nice girl I never say "no" to people maybe thats it...
well the fact that my parents are divorced that's maybe not my fault but it's hard because all my live my parents made us think we are a happy family and raised us to believe in God and in things heaven and hell, i dont know if I still do, because people who told me to do, act like they dont care themselves, but thats another story.
the mean story is that my life sucks so much right now..
as I said I'm a nice girl and still people hate me for no reason, even a few "friends" told me that they didn't like me at first.. why? I'm not that ugly and I'm very very polite and I dont speak a lot I'm shy but thats no reason to hate me.
Even teachers hate me, there was this one teacher he told at the first lesson that I will not pass his class and he truely did everything that I dont pass his class, can u believe he even canceled a test that would made me pass and didn't gave me a chance I really dont know why, I didn't knew him before, I was so sad and I've cried a lot, my parents and friends of courde think I didn't work enough, but thats not true...well no one believes my anyway...
well I hate school and it's not just school.. I think my sister hates me too, but I'm not sure sometimes shes nice and sometimes shes not and as she and my mom are bfs I'm the one to blame on everything, something is broken "it was me" well I know my mom dont like me very much it's sad because my dad dont like me either... thers just my big brother who doesnt live here and my younger brother but he like swiss alawys neutral so its most of the time my mom and my sister against me
my first boyfriend left me one week ago, he dont want to be with me anymore and I dont know why, I think its the same reason why people dont like me.. I cry so much and just sleep because I have nothing to do, we used to be together everyday. I would like to aks him but he told me to not write or text him I think I cried a whole night.
I'm learing to repead my class but my sister did lost my math book so I can't learn it is like someone dont want me to have success or to be happy...
but i think I dont want to be happy anymore I just want reasons why people hate me, why they dont want me to be successful.... why?
I'm only 19 and I dont want to turn 20 because I dont want more pain, sorrow and tears..
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That's probably it for you. They see this nice, "good girl" that people assume has everything all figured out and they hate you for it. They're angry and bitter and when they see someone whose nice, open, and not angry and bitter like them and they piss themselves over it because they don't know a damn thing.
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