My life is sh*t. I know I'm only 15 but it sucks so much.
I have two friends. Who basically never hang out with me, making me a loner. Because most of the time I CHOOSE not to hang out with them, None the less they don't want to hang out with me anyways. Since the age of eight I've been a loner, I've always enjoyed being alone instead of being surrounded by people. I hate being social. I HATE IT.
I'm over-wheight. I'm so scared about my health. I'm scared to see how heavy I really am. But I'm definetly fat. Making it impossible to find clothes that look okay but fit. I'm not over wheight to the point I need to shop at big and tall but I'm still pretty fat for my age.
I've missed so much school to the point where I would rather just die than do it. Yes, lots of kids hate school. But I actually like it, but due to my parents I've missed a ton of it.
I have a huge anxiety disorder. I got anxious over the smallest things.
I want to kill myself, but I don't have the guts to do it. Well first option is to shoot myself, Which I can't do because I don't have a gun, and how is a 15 year old going to get a gun? Another option is that I hang myself, but I have a fear of suffocation. Which is the whole point of hanging myself. So hanging and drowning myself are not options. Other than an over dose from drugs, I don't know what I could possibly do to kill myself. I wish everything would just work out for me. But obviously that's never going to happen.
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1-800-273-TALK
By calling this number you can stay anonymous but you can still talk about the things that are concerning you. There are people out there that care about you even if they don't know you. See, I took the time to respond to your message and I have never even met you. You are going to be okay, sweet thing. It will get better you just have to let it.
Life is full of wonder and extraordinary things, theres no need to end your life. Try finding a hobby. Create things, draw, write, listen to good, upbeat music-NOT sad music. One thing that I personally like to do as a creative thing, is create characters in my head, and make stories.
Darlin, your'e only 15. You have so much ahead of you. The weight thing, pish posh. Don't run away from it, you can lose weight..i used to weight almost 300 pounds, now I weight 140..You can do anything..ANYTHING..that you put your mind to.
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